I just got a call from my girlfriend, right now she is 150 miles away from me, she just informed me that our good friend sean will die within the next 24 hours. Sean is a recovering addict as well, I first met him a couple years ago while I was in a thick mist. I was homeless at the time and had a good $100-200 a day habit going at the time. (of course I dont know how I would get that much a day but always did, and wasnt going to spend money on anything but my habit). He was a good friend of my girl and knew i had a habit but still let me live with him in his apt despit having never met me(yet). The only thing he knew about me at the time was that I was an active addict and got in a fistfight with his best friend. Despit that he allowed me,and my girlfriend, to live there with him. His one rule was DONT STEAL ANYTHING!! And I never did from him. ( Man just thinking of how we met....my eyes are filling up....) Fast forward to about two months ago....my girl gets a phone call from his friend, Sean was arrested, once in General Population a CO found him hanging in his cell (also with a hairnet in his throat so we were told). He has been in the hospital braindead ever since....we never got to hear exactly what happened or what was going thru his mind at the time....anyway the call I got tonight was to tell me that tomorrow morning his parents are going to"pull the plug" as they say. In my heart I know this is best, but for more selfish reasons Im upset to hear that....I know its unlikely he would recover in any way shape or form at this point, but i just dont want him gone....I wish I could tell him a couple things before he goes....I dont know......He is a great guy, we had a couple long nights talking about Friedrich Nietzsche (he had more philosophy books than anyone Ive met, and actually read every on), philosophy in general and everything else. I found out real fast that he was very intelligent, he is one of those people you could have a Great deep conversation with that would last hours...he always was reading, wanting to learn.......I could prob write about him for hours right now........ so im just gonna stop... I ask all of you reading this now to please,if you pray,say a word for him and his family...The world is about to lose a Great and loving man.... Sean, I hope you find the peace you were looking for and more than deserve.... I LOVE YOU BROTHER....
Please keep Sean and his family in your thoughts Sat morning....Thank you all...
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we might die from medication but we sure killed all the pain, but what was normal in the evening by the morning seems insane
You are a wonderful friend to him, and you are keeping his spirit, his gifts, alive in many ways as you pass on the ESH you shared with him. Prayers for all. So sorry that you are going through this---very tuff stuff.
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU
I felt like that's where my life was going, one day I would die locked up in some prison and that's one thing I didn't want, it was one of the things that got me closer to recovery.
Jails, institutions, death OR RECOVERY those are the options for us .
I am very sorry your friend had this happen it's a sad thing to happen I saw a lot of guys killed and hurt in prison and jails I was one of them I got into a few scraps myself, fights riots and didn't always come out looking pretty, last time I was in I had my cheek bone cracked my eyes swole shut ,my ear cut bad enough to have to have stitch's, spent 90 days segregated from inmates and officers because I was homicidal and going insane . I have no clue how I got out of all that other then I was praying so hard to be freed from all that insanity and the insanity going on in my mind I WANTED to make it as bad as I could because I wanted to die or make it so bad that I never EVER would go back, seems it worked....
We who have life must cherish what we have and try our best to make our lives better so that others will be helped too, some of us who are recovering are like angles for others and we do have the power in us to help others change there lives, we found that power greater then addiction make sure you give it to someone else.
