I see people come and people go. Both in the meetings and in my life. My last one is my sponsor past away. My sponsor keep my clean for 21 months now. But my sponsor relapse and want driving when my sponsor did that my sponsor hit a tree and past away two days later. I now that I'm never going to do that again. so now i'm looking for a sponsor and else for anybody that needs someone to talk to. but thats also hard for me right now in the hospital because my blood count is to low to be near my family at home but they still see me. hotjaysoncole@gmail.com for anyone that wants to talk to me at all. send a email and I write back this email is also on my phone. I will miss my sponsor rip
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one minute at a time it works when you don't give up
How awful...what a thing to be dealing with. Thank God YOU are clean & sober. That is so sad, you must be be hurtin' for sure.
By the way though, your sponsor did not keep you clean...you did, by letting your higher power help, by letting your sponsor help, by letting others in the fellowship help, and maybe some outside it. They all may have helped you to get and stay clean, but no one of them could keep you clean...you and your higher power did that, a day at a time. I look at it this way...if I take the credit for somebody else's sobriety, logically I might also have to take the blame for their relapse...no thank you! Sorry you are in the hospital. Also-thanks for the Just for Today posts! Funny, I couildn't find my old book, and ordered a new one..just got it in the mail today.
-- Edited by LeeU on Monday 27th of April 2009 05:45:14 PM
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU
I just came across this sad news, I'm so sorry for your loss Jayson...
((((((((((Prayers and Big NA Hugs to You))))))))))
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
hi i am new to this chat and have recently relapsed myself and damn near killed myself too. My mother passed away on the 2nd of april and I spiraled into such depths of hell again so quickly that I didn't even notice that I was using again until I woke up last sunday and relized that I had been out for 2 days. I am so embarrassed and let down with myself but I could almost live with that. It's my family that my mother left behind being disappointed with me yet again that seems to be the hardest for me to get a grip on. I would love if you feel you'd like to contact me. I had been sober for almost 23 years before I ended up where I was last sunday. We can't ever forget that it is indeed one day at a time, and a fight that we all have to continue working our steps no matter who we are. I know this may not find a whole lot of since right now because I am of course still in the throws of withdrawal but would like to very much talk with someone also. Prayers and thoughts are with you my fellow NA buddy. Just hang in there and relize we all fall short.
-- Edited by poodles123 on Wednesday 13th of May 2009 10:05:58 AM
Welcome Poodles123, thank you for sharing with us, prayers and fellowship love.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.