People don't understand the shit that I've been though...........They've taken away everything from me. So I taking to many pills to ease the pain. It's been hard for me to find myself again. I was so angery at the world. For me that was a dangerous place to be. For months I was caught in the middle and half way inbetween. But I decided to walk with my head held high. Now I'm a man trying to survive. I won't put my hands up and surrender. There will be no white flag above my door.
I will fight until the end because that's all there is left for me. There are days that I want to give up, but that's when I try to find the good things in life. Even though sometimes good things in life are hard to find. I have to be strong can't let anything bring me down. I did my time, I have the guts and the will to survive.
Fight until the end cause your life will depend on the strength that you have inside you. I have been fighting for years. I have been fighting myself alot of the time. That seems like the hardest fight until laterly.
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Jason if all we had inside of us was peace we wouldn't have a trouble with a thing but we're just not built that way are we.
Keep at it you have a lot to fight for and life/God gave you something special to live for , a purpose so to speak and I am sure he see's his Dad for what he is a true warrior and a real man dealing with life on it's terms in the harshest way.
sometimes we learn that giving up the fight brings peace, hence "surrender to win". If you make peace with yourself, issues with others will become less important. Dale Carneige's book "how to win friend friends and influence people" has a lot on this topic. "Yield on matters of no concern to you, Yield on matters of little concern to you, negotiate on the rest". "You've got to pick your battles" was a epiphany when I heard it. I thought that I had to fight for everything right down to the "general principals". I was getting tired and getting no where. So much easier to go with the flow on 90% of life. Don't hate the game, don't hate the rules, don't hate the players, and most importantly don't hate yourself.
The more I fought to survive the more angry and depressed I became and the more I felt like giving up even as I vowed I never wouldso close to that edge, so much of the timeit was crazy-making. Then by immersing myself in the steps I finally learned that giving up is not the same as letting go. And I learned that letting go (and letting God) was the key, not only to survival, but, more importantly, to living. Simple, but not easy, as they say.I had to find my own way to what letting go looked like and felt like for me. Psalm 91 is my survival weapon.
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU
my son sometimes seems stronger than me. He tells me daddy its ok god doesn't want you to go with mommy yet. i think that boy is smart or something. i love him to death and would do anything for him.
keep it simple one foot in front of the other one day at a time or what ever works for you.
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