Dear Raman, If I am not vigilantly working a program of recovery, taking inventory of myself, working the steps in my life, living with spiritual principles then yes my disease will manifest itself in EVERYTHING I am involved with.

It's tough for me to get off the surface and go down under and find the real source of discomfort , hostility and unhappiness. Theres a lot of stressors in life , daily . This brings a great deal of discomfort for me personally.

I have been working on a project on my job for 3 weeks now a bathroom situation and just wanted it finished today I got stuck with some plumbing which I dont do but wanted this job finished and couldn't get the sink to sit right because the plumber who worked on it last week didn't listen to what I thought should happen and now we may need to rip the wall back out again and I may have to redo work I've  done once already.

Is it my problem ? NOPE only if I make it mine I'm not a plumber I patch walls and ceilings and paint thats it, matter of fact I have now shifted the work back on him or anyone else who wants to give it a go and make it work, I've let it go. If I dont let this go then its like a boulder on my shoulders all day and night, not going there.


Recovery and relapse chapter:

Many times in our recovery the old bugaboos will haunt us. Life may again become meaningless, monotonous and boring. We may tire mentally in repeating our new ideas and tire physically in our new activities, yet we know that if we fail to repeat them we will surely take up our old practices. We suspect that if we do not use what we have, we will lose what we have. These times are often the periods of our greatest growth. Our minds and bodies seem tired of it all, yet the dynamic forces of change or true conversion, deep within, may be working to give us the answers that alter our inner motivations and change our lives.
http://www.earthgroupna.org/literature/basictext/chapterseven.htm

Thanks Vin and Lee,, I realy aprpeciate your shares !!

Hey...my experience is that wellness comes. It usually comes with patience and clean time and a bit of work. If drugs are not active in my life today i.e I'm not using today...then what I've got is   ME.
'ME'   is about past thoughts, past hurts, past connditining, past ways of operating in the world.
If I am not happy with aspects of these things, then its time to change them.
What I do is  ... Define the question and then stay with the question...
I observe the question.
When a problem is fully understood from all angles, it usually fades for me.
I share about what I'm doing and my progress from the floor.
I keep my ears open for messages of recovery.