Today i was having a really crappy day. last night i went out with a friend got stoned. got in a bar fight with some chick. i got a concussion and a few broken ribs. i woke up in the hospital this morning. so i think that may have had a part in my decision. haha.
I FINALLY GET! GOD DAMN I GOT IT!
you told me one day i would get it and by golly i got it! i've been talking to Larry a lot lately and he's been helping. and just right now this very moment i got it. starting tomorrow morning im going to wake up clean. and im going to stay clean. im going to go to a meeting. im going to find a different sponsor. and im going to kick this disease in the ass. im so excited. i can't WAIT!
so wish me luck.
-- Edited by defeatedgirl123 on Sunday 19th of April 2009 01:00:23 AM
Something told me I BETTER CHECK IN LOL been gone since yesterday on a 1 day trip .
It takes what it takes lots of things ought to be enough for us but for some reason we are so stubborn and we comfort ourselves with drugs because of so much dis ease in our lives.
Best thing to do with anger is not react to it and do an inventory, Tahir said something once to me that I usually try to use something like don't react respond.
Best thing that works for me is to keep my mouth shut LOL I can really get myself on a roll starting with my mouth then it gets physical.
Larry's a good man he's been to places I've been to and we did those trips for a lot of years, he's a very fortunate man to still have what he's got in his life and he damn well know's it and has a lot of gratitude for that and is always helping others in the chat room, so stick with him he's giving back as much as he possibly can just like others here will I have spoken with several of the guys who post here ALL have been helpful in service to me and this board and everyone who comes here as have the woman.
HAng in there Liz the longer you hang on to what you have the more you learn get to those meetings there very imortant towards your recovery, stay well stop fighting
i have a hard time keeping my mouth shut and just not saying anything. my mouth gets me in trouble most of the time. first it's my mouth then it's my hands then it's my fists etc.
today was a good day. no urge to use and i didn't have school, and i got to meet my very favorite band. GOOD DAY! i got sooo much sleep last night it felt amazing. and even though it's raining it was a good day. i think i may even go to a meeting today. who knows anything can happen. well thanks vini and dean and blithe for the imput. i will always consider what you tell me.
I FED off the input from others here my first few years getting clean and still lean on the support here, it's pretty much all I have as far as support group goes but its working for me. I still get to meetings not often enough and I am going to be checking out a new mens meeting on Saturday soon, I know I need more something more intimate, not sure thats the right word but contact with others helps me not isolate so much, I generally like people but if I get off alone long enough I will isolate more then I should.
HEaring others share in meetings and watching them share is something else I enjoy someone can share something and I visually see something and hear something I can totally relate to many times in meetings I feel like crying becuase I get touched so deeplky by others shares, Really !! so meetings are very important to our recovering Liz makes sure you get to a few each weeks if possible.
i deffinately understand what you mean about isolating yourself. im the same way. goodluck with your new mens meeting! i like hearing other people share but i hate sharing myself. i would rather hear what other people have to say then focus on me and my problems. i always feel like my problems aren't as bad as someone elses. and i feel like what i have to share is not as "interesting" or something.
