hello everyone i am mikef. i wanted to run something by you all.i am 61 years and i spent from 1959 until 1984(dec.2nd) in addiction. i surrendered then after a life of devastion(we all here know without me going into "my story')but anyway after spending 2 years in NARANON because my son (22 year old) had a heroin addiction that almost killed him and brought him to jail and institutions.about 14 months ago for some reason i thought i would go back to NARCOTICS ANONYMOUS,NOT BECAUSE I FELT LIKE USING BUT FOR PROBABLY THE WRONG REASONS.(ROLE MODEL FOR MY SON ALTHOUGH A LITTLE LATE EH!!)as i began "working the program" i realised that this was really for me.I got a sponsor and now am working my steps.coffee maker for 1 of the home groups i am a member of and learning to try and be as honest as i can.although i sporadically attended NA back in 1984 i never bothered working the program and spent next 24 years on my own walking as close as i could with the God of my understanding.i now realize that this process is what my God wanted me to do.. i am a little late but now is my time.i at times feel alianated from the group although i probably have more clean time that even my sponsor.i know that clean time doesnt equal recovery and no one has made me feel the way i do just whats left of my brain making me feel like this i guess. anyone out there in same kind of situation??would like to hear back if so.thanks for listening and peace!!!
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hey Mike, welcome to the board! We've got several 20 something year miracles (one day at a time) in here as well as a cross section of time and a bunch of newcomers. I certainly got complaciant in my recovery from about 7 years through 17 years. The last 3 I've been trying to make up for it. . You're not alone in the "got busy with life and forgot to go to meetings" club.
You must be doing something right. The spiritual aspect, imo, is probably the most important. Dealing with others in and out of the rooms, is a different story.
Dean.C= I "certainly got complaciant in my recovery from about 7 years through 17 years. The last 3 I've been trying to make up for it.". ha,ha,ha,,,well said Dean. Hi Mikef,,hugs man,,welcome.
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HEY RAMAN, THANKS FOR REPLY MAN..I also been playing drums since i was a kid in and out of al different kind of bands,keep on jammin man...made a decent sideline of cash playing pool before addiction took its toll also.my gramps owned a poolroom in poughkeepsie and i would clean tables and then was allowed to play at an early age.got good then got trashed.played again after recovery but didnt ever really get it back like early on....love the game though peace...mikef
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It's never too late to change and my ex-hubby is still an addict after 34 years. He began his from 1975-present. He's been in and out of drug diversion programs since 2006 not sure if it worked for him cause I seen him a month ago and I know for a fact he was still using meth. Of course, I have no evidence but he had all the signs of it. Anyways, just keep focus as many drug programs and NA don't work for those who don't want to get better. Always remember to replace the addiction with God's love. See if you're 61 and God hasn't taken you than his plans for you isn't complete. As you get stronger and courage develop remember to place God's armor so you can be a warrior for your son's addiction. You become that warrior and fight that addiction so you can defeat your son's addict and save his life. This is God's calling for you to save your son so in the meantime you save yourself and get better. Call God when those walks are wobbly and don't give up. Good luck and God Bless you.....
HEY drs thanks for the reply.yes even though i stayed away from NA for so many years of my recovery and walked with the God of my understanding for the last 24 years before coming back i do believe God is sending me back to school to pick up where i wasnt at all that long ago.i did come back to NA for what i thought was my son but soon realized that this process is been the missing link for me in moving forward.im still an addict that just dont use drugs.mind altering or mood changing substances.Naranon for parents/relatives of addicts has been a blessing for detachment purposes but its still a tough trip when your children are involved.My God is definitely lighting up the way for me i just got to keep following the light,,peace to you also and may the God of your understanding keep you in the light,.mikef
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yes 25 years sober (alcohol), never went to meetings or worked the steps. Here is the issue and why I am here-I have become addicted to pain pills. I really can't believe I let this happen. So here I am. I was clean for three days and then used tonite. I am taking Percocet for bunched up vertabrae in my back and neck. I take 5mg a day. I knew I was playing with fire. So anyhow-I am going to try this the "right way" this time. I just wanted to check in and I saw your post. Thanks
Thanks for sharing that Mike, very inspiring... am 5 years into recovery now, and I must admit the 5th year has been less of working the program as compared to the first 4 years, for me Greater family and financial responsibilities, losing a loved one and the grief that followed, my chronic illness acting up physically... it did take a toll on me in the last one year... It's so very easy for me to fall into the pattern of trying hard to live, day after day, and forgetting those Basics that made my living possible at all in the first place... More and more I try to fit NA into my daily life, more and more I realize that it's my life that needs to fit into my program of recovery. As Dean shared, complacency is a big threat for my recovery I realize today... I need to do what I did as a newcomer, nothing changes, as simple as that for me...
Good to know that I'm not alone, that everyone in recovery, irrespective of clean time goes through these phases
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hello again! i am just getting back to site thanks for stopping in.yes its true for me also i surrendered and stayed abstinent from all mind altering and mood changing substances as our text says it for next 24 years,but like i said back in feb 2008 when i walked back in rooms of NA, my real "RECOVERING " began,believe me there is a difference between abstinence and recovery.i am working my steps ,have a sponsor,do service and my life has really blossomed.the basic text of NA TELLS US THERE ARE TIMES when medications may be valid but also in what way we use them ....as addicts our bodies dont know difference between drugs prescribed and drugs to get high.i would definitely suggest getting a program, a sponsor and do some work,i know it sounds nuts after so many years of "clean time" but look where you are now!we all need help and we do get complacent .life is a trip and we still have probably most character defects we had before we were using and now after we have been abstinent.most addicts really are "one bad decision away from devastation..page 98 of BASIC TEXT gives you some info on just where your at.be honest with yourself,reach all the way back to "admitting you are powerless overyour addiction,your life is once again unmanageable and try to reach the god of your understanding..i wish you peace and strength to do what you need to do.i'll stop in again see whats up.peace mikef
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hi tahir! nice to share with you, man we do get out there huh?yup when i showed up again after so long I said what am i doin here again?wasnt long after i knew i needed to really get back to the beginning and go to work..im 61 going on 12 and got a trailways bus full of baggage.this process is about "life" for me.i know the God of my understanding brought me "back to school"..good to talk to you i'll stop back in on the rebound peace mikef
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Hi Mike, so refreshing to hear the program work in another's life, gives me lots of strength and hope, look forward to frequent rebounds so that we get to hear more from you Mike
Big NA Hugs.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
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