Please help me, I feel like I am dying

avajynah · Newbie

Please help me, I feel like I am dying

LeeU · Guru

None of us here, and probably not your husband either, have the medical expertise to advise you. Consider calling a doc you trust on an emergency basis so you at least have some medical oversight.

This is nothing to minimize or fool with...withdrawing "cold turkey" is not always the safest, nor is trying to medicate yourself through it. The heart racing can be checked out in an ER. Don't dismiss all medical professionals based on your bad experience with a few. Be sure you are completely honest with them about what you were taking and what is in your system now.

You are not a "loser", you are simply addicted, no matter how you got that way. Nobody "chooses" this...even those of us looking to get "high" (or to get "down"), had no clue how bad it would get when we found we could not stop and had to go through hell getting off the drugs.

Jana40503 · Senior Member

Absolutely go to the dr. You need medical help with this!

gettingbackup · Veteran Member

god i needed to here that (2nd poster)

I am not a loser... none of us CHOSE to get here

"You are not a "loser", you are simply addicted, no matter how you got that way. Nobody "chooses" this...even those of us looking to get "high" (or to get "down"), had no clue how bad it would get when we found we could not stop and had to go through hell getting off the drugs. "

the guilt is what keeps me 'hiding'.....

OP. i too am going thru withdrawal.... and isolated. isolation is also my enemy. reaching out is a big step.... thats what u and I are doing...

I too am begging God.. seems Powers thaat be brought us here at same time... thats answered prayer

-- Edited by gettingbackup on Monday 30th of March 2009 11:35:30 AM

gettingbackup · Veteran Member

avajynah wrote:

The docs had me on script narcotcs for over 3 months. I am on day 4 of withdrawals and I am so depressed and feel so alone.

My husband is in the military and says i dont need the hosiptal to get of these meds.

I am so depressed and my heart is racing constantly. When will this ever end. I cannot functiona and all I feel is doom, shakesm chills. When is it gonna be better> I have begging god to make all this pain and depression go away and each say seems worse than better. I try and make my self go for a walk, No one seems to understand what I am going through and I am so miserableand can't seem to get out of my head. I take hot baths and try to be positive and keep telling myself I am fine ad I am feeling better and I am not gonna let this beat me.

I have 2 weeks to get over this. All I am taking is 300mg of saroquil a day. Nothing is helping for the anxiety. I had some left over valium and a few adavan. I have been using it spareingly to help calm me down with the panic attacks I am having.

I was happy before these damn doxs put me on these narcotics and I want to be happy again. I just cant see the light at the end of the tunnel. PLEASE I AM BEGGING and have BEGGIN TO GOD to please help me get through this. Any tips would be very much appreciated.

I have never abused drugs or alcohol in my life and I feel like such a damn loser. PLEASE HELP ME!

JEnna

I am a newbie here, so : are we allowed to ask 'Why, and What'?

-why were you put on them/this?

-why are u suddenly taken off them/this?

-whats in two weeks?

Also, I was you once.... I was happy, clean... survived major operation, and went back to work. easy. nothing to it..
suddenly, the doc's did same thing to me JEenna.. 20ish yrs ago!.. they put me on drugs!i fought back... but i was forced via a clinic. to show up every day, dose or else.

Now a days, Docs seem to want to remove everyone off of meds. (thats what is going on in my city.. cant find a doc for nothin! where were they 20 yr ago!! take advantage of this NEW WAY of thinking.

Your kick will stop. TIME. First it nags at you every 30 seconds... then every minute, then every 2 minutes... each minute feels like an hour. right?

find a routine... i know your mind cant settle on a routine. but your bod is saying 'put me in a hot tub'. and your doing it! even if it takes 10 a day (been there) and you turn into a prunes prune. who cares! HA!

try music.. find something that soothes you. doesnt matter if its heavy metal or bach. start dancing around in the house in ur jammies. you'l be amazed what that does. movement of ur muscles.. releases our bodies natural opiate : endorphines.

then take another hot bath. change the music station with each mood swing. who cares? ur on line now, so open another tab use this. its free http://www.theradio.com/

AnthonyG · Senior Member

It hurts to withdrawl. Find a meeting near you. Get some phone numbers of the women. Theres a place for you. Its up to you to get there. Theres also hotline numbers. Your area may have a public relations commitee. Most of those carry pagers. Get in contact with NA in your area. The paperclipped threads at the top of the forums page can get you started .
Good luck and hugs.

lanem · Member

You probably won't die. It might feel like it but it probably won't happen. We've all detoxed and we are still here. There are days of pain and then the pain passes...if you do not crumble. If you crumble (i.e. use a drug again) you start the whole mess over again.
Your addiction wants you to crumble.
It wants you to use.
How hard are you prepared to fight?
By all means check with a doctor ..its only prudent seeing we can speak face to face...check with a doctor but BEWARE.
You say the doctors made you take the narcotics in the first place...well...
Once again I don't know your personal situation but when I hear "The doctor did it to me" Alarm bells go off.
We are by nature manipulative creatures
personal honesty is the key
Its a program of complete abstinence...Persistence, honesty, dogged determination, meetings, honest sharing, prayer.....this will get you through.
The pain will pass if you don't crumble.
I say to my sponsees....'repeat this mantra until you are blue in the face'
"WHEN I REACH MY BREAKING POINT, I WILL NOT BREAK"

BigV · Senior Member

I had a 3-4 day withdrawal that was quite something withy seizures and heart racing that scared the heck outta me it was like a nightmare. Hospital doctor wanted me inpatient and I refused and did it alone at home which made it very difficult but I had lots of time to think about my demise from what i had been doing to myself.

keep the phone close by incase you need to call an ambulance and make sure people know whats going on i had my Aunt checking in on me and my mom at the time only let them call me though.

Other chemicals can cause even worse situations then what i went through so i say at least get to your doctor and tell him whats going on and follow his directions.

marigoldhead · Veteran Member

I too was addicted to narcotic pain killers. I had been a addict for over 15 years. I now have 20 months to the good. The withdraws will go away. Find something to get your mind off them. If they get bad enough, go to the hospital. If you dont want to do that, go to a treatment facility. They will help you get threw the rough time. Use a call list if you have one. Call a friend to come stay with you. Dont forget you are not alone. There are addicts like myself that have been threw the same thing. Believe me I remember the withdraws. But they do get better. If you have no one else.... email me for a phone number ... marigoldhead@hotmail.com

Keep your chin up!

Todd

avajynah · Newbie

I don't have the energy to reply to everyone but I wanted to thank you all from the bottom of my heart. I am not over the withdrawals, been almost 2 weeks? I have developed panic attacks, anxiety and severe depression in it's place. I went to a head doc and they put me on Zoloft a bit over a week ago and it still hasn't kicked in. I saw my family practitioner this week and he put me on a low dose of kolonipin (sp). It really doesn't calm me down. I am so depressed and just moved to Fla. When I mentioned I only had a certain time to get my act together is because my husband leaves on the 15th to go to sea and I have a very active 3 yo and I am just scared and very alone. I have no energy. All I feel like doing is crying. I am forcing myself to the gym tonight to at least walk on the treadmill for 30 mins. My grandma that raised me has been here visiting 5 weeks and she goes back home on Monday and then 2 days later my husband leaves. I have no help and I am scared. I just hope this antidepressant kicks in soon. I have been begging God to take the fear and pain away. I just wish it would happen. As far as why I was on narcotics for so long is I needed a kidney stone operated on and my husband was out to sea and the only time they could do it was when he kept having to go out, every few weeks. They should have refered me out in town to a specialist and this never would have happened. I just wanna get through this. I beg for strength and patients and for the pain in my stomach to go away. I can hardly eat. Anyways thanks again for all the replies it meant the world to me.

HUGS
Jenna

DeanC · Guru

Jenna, moving probably has a lot to do with the anxiety and depression (both fear related). Google stress relief exercises like deep breathing ones. If every time you felt anxiety coming on you took 2 minutes to breathe deeply in and out slowly counting from 1 to 10, it would lessen or eliminate them. Getting out and exercising aerobically is the #1 treatment for depression. If you are having anxiety, have you gotten off caffeine and sugar completely? Are you getting enough sleep? If you exercise more, you'll sleep better.
Exercise, eat 3 good meals, take vitamins, and sleeping 8 hours a day, concentrate hard on those routines, and you'll feel better.

Dean

lanem · Member

Fair enough.. the discomfort will pass and from what you are saying it is already passing..if you're going for walks and going to the gym....trust me..its passing..its on the way out.
I guess its up to you how much you choose to take on board from us but I'll just share something from my perspective only: What I'm talking about is an attitudinal shift... Doctors never 'PUT' you on anything. Doctors 'suggest' a treatment option and we either choose to accept it or not.
Best of luck.. The internet is no replacement for a real life, real time meeting.
If you can get there...GO TO A MEETING.....Mike

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