WHERE HAVE I BEEN? WHERE AM I GOING? BY LEA MC CABE Where have I been? I been hiding. Living in hell, the world spinning past me. No one to tell. Locked away. A cavern in my mind, Tears from my heart, Hope I could not find. Where have I been? In a deep, dark sea, Winking my emotion, drowning to rock bottom, This is my ocean. Beneath the crimson tide, Under the endless waves, no breath, no life, my soul needed saved.
Where have I been? I've been lost so long, Cannot explain my misery, isolation, depression, sickness and agony. I am learning to step back, look at myself, The result of my past, my self worth, my health.
Where am I going? I am unearthing, coming up for air, Tasting breaths of life, confused , not quite there. Having fear of reality, of who I could be. To show mind with body, what the world would see.
Where am I going? I'm pushing forward, blindfolded, Scared, learning to accept, the life I've impaired. Tears and hard work, I dont want to but I must, Learn to reach out, look to others to trust,
Where am I going? I am leaving my past, leaving that place. To feel rain on my cheeks, feel sun on my face. I want my life back, to find beauty within. Where am I going? Not where I've been.
-- Edited by xan on Wednesday 25th of March 2009 09:56:58 PM
I was all set to post up a poem that was read at a friend's funeral today, but after reading this beautiful piece, I figured that maybe it would be best to place mine under this one. I think the two of them signify the best between active addiction and recovery. (thanks xan & Lea! I tell ya, I love being a part of recovery and Narcotics Anonymous!!!)
A Wish For You
I wish you enough ............sun to keep your attitude bright I wish you enough ............ rain to appreciate the sun more I wish you enough ............ happiness to keep your spirit alive I wish you enough ............ pain so that the smallest joys appear much bigger I wish you enough ............ loss to appreciate all that you possess I wish you enough ............ "Hello"s to get you through the final goodbyes
Please, remember everyone that has gone before us in our travels thru this journey called Recovery!!
-- Edited by cleanNOTsober on Wednesday 25th of March 2009 11:49:16 PM
