It's a fabulous morning here in southern california! The sun is out, the birds are chirping, and I'm grateful that God has given me the blessing of yet another day here on Earth to be witness to all the beautiful things in life.
Things are good today, so far...of course, I've barely had one cup of coffee and I certainly haven't ventured any further than the back door to let the dog out. But by remembering to start each new day off by surrendering to this program, by surrendering my will to God, and that I need to have faith no matter what, I know that I'll get through whatever may come my way.
And I'll be able to do so without picking up and using!
I know that there are those out there that will wake up this morning and not feel the way I do. But I just want to say to you, that it DOES get better! Just when you think you can't 'do this' anymore, the day will come when you wake up and you'll be pleasantly surprised to see that you're now doing it without even having to put much effort into it.
IT was warm here in Central California yesterday I even broke a sweat finally summer is on the way UGH!! not my favorite time of year I like the cold but work will pick up now.
Some mornings are ok some are BLAH depends on how much I eat the night before LOL sometimes I wake up with a food hang over last night I stayed lite and woke up feeling pretty darn good .
physical stuff plays a lot in how I feel, I am not good with dis comfort in any form.
Like you said this becomes second nature just takes some getting used to the idea and as you work things out further along using stops becoming an option or aternative all together.
Sometimes I say to myself " HEY I should want to use over this ", thats when I see some recovery happening for me .
Summer seems to have already arrived here in the S.F.V...temps in the high 80's predicted today, and ya gotta love the thickness of the air that comes along with the heat when you live in the Los Angeles area.
Being asthmatic, and still not knowing if I have the beginning stages of emphasyma or if it's damage done to my lungs from the daily (over 10 years) smoking of that damned glass pipe, it gets really tough to even walk from room to room sometimes when the heat and smog kick in.
This is only the beginning of the scorching days that are yet to come here in the Valley...but I wouldn't trade them for the world, today!
We do recover - one day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time, one second at a time. And I'm so so so so grateful that I don't have to do it alone!
Oh, Florida, or California....I wish. Here in New Hampshire I'm still looking at over a foot of snow in my neck of the woods, tho it is melting, which just launches us into MUD SEASON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haven't been able to wear simple, nice looking, regular shoes for almost 4 & 1/2 months now...snow...ice...water...and now MUD. Glad the weather has never been a factor in my clean time! (Wasn't ever a factor in using either LOL.)
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU
