let me start with a little basic info. i have been clean since jan. 2, 2006. i haven't been to a meeting in about two years. in the past when i had using dreams, i would either not use or if i did i felt a tremendous amount of guilt and disappointment. last night i had a using dream asnd did not feel any of that and i used. i told myself and another in my dream that i could not use one type of drug but using this one is ok. in my conscious mind, i know better and have no desire to use. i just wonder if the absence of guilt or self control in my dream is pointing to anything in reality. I would appreciate any feedback on this matter. for the first time in two i wonder if i need a meeting.
I'd never be clean TWO years without meetings! I'd have my ass in one so quick they wouldn't even see me coming through the door! Meetings are part of the program. Abstinence in the absence of recovery cannot be fun!
I suggest a meeting, post haste!
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