As always I have some good things going on in my life and some bad things. Slowly the bad has been growing and it is now to the point where I can not even be happy about anything. What little good I have is completely swallowed by all the bad stuff. I am getting all those old feelings of being overwhelmed, sad, and angry. My head is spinining and I am starting to see no piont is staying strong. I know I am feeling sorry for myself but I also know I have a right too. This life is so unfair. Why do I always have to do what is right when everything around me is so wrong. Something needs to happen because I can't keep going on like this. Smiling while the world screws me over. I am sick of it and I don't know how to keep doing it. I think it is my time to give in atleast once or twice. Just enough to give the world a reason to really hate me. I know it is not going to help my situation but nothing is at this point. So this is the point where I go and use....
That's insane and I hope writing about it took some of the power out of it! You've been doing so well. Don't get back in the ring with the disease so you can lose again.
Life is up and down kid. It's all about perspective. We can't afford the luxury of long term pitty partying or resentments so time to get up and work on your perspective.
We make a choice to be happy, regardless of what is going on. Happiness isn't about circumstances or situations, it's an inside deal and it IS a choice!
Stop feeling sorry for yourself... go work at a soup kitchen for a day, visit a cancer hospital or a children's hospital... See if your life is really so stinkin' awful when you open your eyes and look around!
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The truth does not change based on my inability to stomach it - Flannery O'Connor
My happiness grows in direct proportion to my acceptance and in inverse proportion to my expectations - Michael J. Fox
Hi mate..Mike here from Brisbane, Australia. What I did and what I ask my sponsees to do is to 'specify'. We do get overwhelmed. Usually the way out is through putting down on paper EXACTLY what we are talking about. Global, general statements of being fuc*ed are not good enough ol mate. What IS actually wrong? Make a list..check it twice.. take it to your sponsor and say "can we work through these things one at a time" Slow and steady wins the race mate. It's a program of action. BWAP...
