Hi im new at reaching out to stay clean. I have been clean for a length of time then i get scared and use again. I have no support system around me, I have very bad anxiety attacks so that stops me from going to meetings around where i live. I thought this was a good way to start. I have been through the rehab and outpt. My family does not beleave in addiction, so they are out of the pic. Hope to get something out of this to help me stay clean, i know its our decision what we do in life but i also have so called friends i met in rehab that want to use all the time i thats all i hear. I have been trying to stay away from them. thank you for letting me vent.. Kelly
hey kelly, welcome.... i used to get crazy anxiety attacks going to meetings, going outside, talking to people, etc..... i found one lady who i could talk to and started there....... the longer i stayed clean the easier it gets.... this is a great place to start... and again welcome
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people who mind don't matter, and people who matter don't mind- Dr. Seuss
It's ok to get anxiety attacks at meetings, I still do on rare occasions
And rarely have I seen an addict clean up and walk into a meeting room without anxiety... it's part of the natural process of most of the newcomers...
I was diagnosed social phobic and was under medication for 3-4 years by the time I walked into the NA rooms. It was very difficult for me to do that, to face people without the help of drugs, but I did it anyway, it gets better the more you make meetings, just a few handful of such meetings will start making you relax I'm sure...
Welcome to MIP (Miracles In Progress family), that's what I call this group. This has been a great support for me, being part of this group here through this message board for a few years now. Keep coming back Kelly, we all need each other.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Hi Kelly, Welcome! I think you will find the support and friendship you need here. I have and believe me I had hardly any hope I would! But I did! So there you go, as Tahir says there are miracles in progress here. Good Luck, emily
hi my name is della and it was reallly hard for me to reach out in the begining also. One thing that I did have was a wonderful father who never gave up on me. My story is sooooooooooooooooo long and detailed, lots of heartache and pain.Just a small token of advice if you keep all that "crap" in it hurts worse. I love talking with people about addiction and jut how cunning the disease is.Maybe I can help you out in some way.If ya need me......dellamay@yahoo.com!!! also its been a while since I have had access to a computer in my home. I usewd to get on line into the live chat rooms, but every one i look up now says I need to download something called "JAVA" not a whiz on computers can ya help me with this one? maybe we could talk more that way as well. hang in there. lol Dell
iI hey Big V I have not had access to a computer for a while now. Looking through all the sights. I have been trying to find a live chat room and it seems as if all need a download of something called "JAVA" I am not a whiz on a computer so honestly Iam cluless!!!Ha!Ha! I know I had a website written down before and all I had to do was log in. I HAVE SEEN YOU THROUGHOUT THIS SITE A LOT. So maybe you can help me out with this. I would love to get back into chatting with other people it always gave me great inspiration and I love helping others as well. LOL.....DELLA MAY