"This program has become a part of me.... I understand more clearly the things that are happening in my life today I no longer fight the process."
Basic Text, p. 162
In active addiction, things happened seemingly without rhyme or reason. We just "did things"; often without knowing why or what the results would be. Life had little value or meaning.
The Twelve Step process gives meaning to our lives; in working the steps, we come to accept both the dark and the bright sides of ourselves. We strip away the denial that kept us from comprehending addiction's affect on us. We honestly examine ourselves, picking out the patterns in our thoughts, our feelings, and our behavior We gain humility and perspective by fully disclosing ourselves to another human being. In seeking to have our shortcomings removed, we develop a working appreciation of our own powerlessness and the strength provided by a Power greater than we are. With our enhanced understanding of ourselves, we gain greater insight into and acceptance of others.
The Twelve Steps are the key to a process we call "life": In working the steps, they become a part of usand we become a part of the life around us. Our world is no longer meaningless; we understand more about what happens in our lives today. We no longer fight the process. Today, in working the steps, we live it.
Just for today: Life is a process; the Twelve Steps are the key. Today, I will use the steps to participate in that process, understanding and enjoying myself and my recovery.
That is such a soothing passage! The whole notion of "process", rather than rigid, hard-edged people, places and things is comforting. My sobriety and clean time today feels like a flowing stream, smooth pools in parts, bubbling and swirling over beautiful mossy rocks in others, and totally refreshing. I'd been projecting and getting anxious over something-a pending anniversary, truth be told-and have been needing this process, for the program to work me, to regain emotional sobriety. Finally, just for today, I am at peace.
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU