"We continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it."
Step Ten
In Narcotics Anonymous, we've found that the more we live in harmony with our Higher Power's will for us, the greater the harmony in our lives. We use the Tenth Step to help us maintain that harmony. On a daily basis, we take time to look at our behavior. Some of us measure each action with a very simple question: "God's will, or mine?"
In many cases, we find that our actions have been in tune with our Higher Power's will for us, and we in turn have been in tune with the world around us. In some cases, however, we will discover inconsistencies between our behavior and our values. We've been acting on our own will, not God's, and the result has been dissonance in our lives.
When we discover such inconsistencies, we admit we've been wrong and take corrective action. With greater awareness of what we believe God's will for us to be in such situations, we are less likely to repeat those actions. And we are more likely to live in greater concord with our Higher Power's will for us and with the world around us.
Just for today: I wish to live in harmony with my world. Today, I will examine my actions, asking, "God's will, or mine?"
i have studied the steps for a long time but finally just now I feel like i really, really 'get it'. maybe it's because this is my real recovery (I hope) whereas before it was just me 'trying to quit'.
all these years I knew what i was doing was my own stubborn will and was not right by HP but I just kept on kept on kept on ignoring HP.
Why did HP choose 6 days ago to shout in my ear 'NOW IS THE TIME, DUMB *SS!'? I don't know. it was just like that, one day to the next.
in fact I had just bought an ounce of pot the day before and never touched it. I don't know why but boy, am i grateful.
mostly i am grateful to this board. you were all right here when i needed you. it's truly a miracle.
the other day at a meeting I heard a member share that the way his Higher Power reveals His Will to him is through his conscience... I remember my Counselor saying the same to me a few years back... So grateful to be reminded that there is an inner voice within me that does faintly whisper to me when something's not right...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.