Hello and thank you all for your help and all the love!
this is such a warm and kind group.
I wish I could meet you all face-to-face for real hugs!
I used to work the steps when my XH - severe alcoholic - was out of control, and I went to Al Anon (for families of addicts). I never thought that I was out of control myself by numbing myself against him, and that the steps would not only work for me dealing with my XH's addiction but now, I can use them for mine.
The 12 steps seemed so far out at first, I didn't understand them at all. But they saved me once and now they saved me again, because now I really understand how to work them.
After I admitted my problem to myself, I then told someone else. That person was so kind and accepting, and forgiving.
I have to admit so far it's ALL GOOD!
Except the sleep part - can't sleep, even with a mild sleep aid. I don't care. I'd rather stay awake than go backwards.
PEACE to all, thank you and good luck to you today! - emily
Good for you Emily! The sleep will come and when it does it will probably be peaceful and the best real rest you've had in some time! A week is an eternity in the beginning. I'm coming up on six years and sometimes a day is an eternity!
I'm so glad you found us and we found you and that we have each other. That's how this thing works!
What about meetings in the "real world"? Have you found any yet? I'd love to hear about you connecting with some women that you can really look at face to face and hug!
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The truth does not change based on my inability to stomach it - Flannery O'Connor
My happiness grows in direct proportion to my acceptance and in inverse proportion to my expectations - Michael J. Fox
it takes time, but the sleep, natural sleep (not the drug-induced stupor) will come, knowing that anything wrong health-wise takes time to heal and recover helps for me... best wishes.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
