i need some help.

defeatedgirl123 · Veteran Member

i need some help.

BigV · Senior Member

You have started by reaching out and asking for help we're here for you, your defeat and surrender will be your foundation to stand on , believe it or not.

Time will tell in the extent of your defeat, your willingness to go to any length to keep your recovery going, your honesty will take you even further and remain openminded to new ideas and concepts of this program, and take the suggestions best you can.

Go to meetings.

Get a sponsor.

Get phone numbers ( you may have to ask for them )

Start reading the literature, get the NA book, used book stores have them cheap.

STAY CLEAN NO MATTER WHAT

Find a higher power to help you, be it God, a group of people in recovery.

These are things ou can get started on , the steps will come later for now do these suggested things, it is your begining, we Love and Welcome you aboard.

trueakitalover · Senior Member

Welcome. First and foremost you will identify with a lot of us addicts on here and at f2f meetings. Face to face meetings that is. I had to go to 90 in 90 90 meetings in 90 days I am currently at day 47 in my own recovery after a relapse. I had six months clean used and decided it was no better out there. I got a new sponsor, one who showed me she believed in me, showed me the genuine love that we all need. I got a network and use them each and every day to talk to. Got the phone numbers and use them to my best ability! I go to meetings like crazy. If I am not in school or working try to make 2 meetings a day. I am 47 days into a 90 in 90. I call my sponsor on a daily. I participate in homegroup activities even sponsorship activities. I read my literature on a daily basis even when I can't stand the chapter my sponsor has me working on now Which is Why Are We Here! I started off with Who is An Addict, What is The NA Program and now Why Are We Here! IT is a processs. I love the program and the fellowhip of NA. I am learning to live a new way of life. I got rid of all negatitivity in my own personal life. I hang with the winner's in the program if they look slack in dthe program they probably are. The winner's are the ones that are sitting in the front of each and every meeting, not speaking while the meeting is going on. Not bouncing up and down to get coffee, answering phones, texting in the middle of the meetings, They are sitting with a book in their hands. Listening intently to the message for the message. Grab what you need from each meeting and leaving the rest is what I do. I leave the crazy crap alone.

defeatedgirl123 · Veteran Member

since im only 17 and i attend a meeting will they ask me for my information and stuff because im under 18? and i've never been to a meeting before. i only decided to seek help last night. and how do i find a sponsor?

TorturedSoul · Veteran Member

Wow I must say you are so very younge to have such a big problem. (trust me I have been there) But getting help now takes a lot of guts. And I wish you the best of luck. As far as meetings are concered no one will no how old you are unless you tell them. Once you go to meetings you will start to see the same faces and there is where you will find your sponsor.

Maybe you should seek treatment?

defeatedgirl123 · Veteran Member

yeah i was very young when i started. actually my friend was crying about it last night and said that i really need to get help. and i kind of agreed with her because i was sick of people juding me and talking shit about me. i thought about rehab but i dont want to miss out on school and any other opportunites i might have after i graduate. i really want to be an intern for an organization called invisible children and travel to africa after i graduate. so i dont want to miss out on anything. and i dont really have the money.

marigoldhead · Veteran Member

Welcome to your first step! I too was hooked on herion. It is a tough road. At your age you might want to think about a treatment center. If not that, you need to do 90 meetings in 90 days. They will not ask questions if you are there for the right reasons. If you ever need to talk one on one, email me marigoldhead@hotmail.com. Ive only got 18 months clean, but im willing to talk if you need that. I will keep you in my prayers.

Jana40503 · Senior Member

Welcome sweetie! Glad you found us. Your anonymity is protected in any NA meeting! No questions, only other recovering addicts who want to help you with your problem.

Herion can have some pretty miserable withdrawal symptoms, as I'm sure you know, and sometimes medically supervised detox is the best avenue... It allows us to get clean and begin a foundation that will help us stay clean.

Can you talk to someone, at school, an adult friend of the family, your parents... Someone you can be up front with about needing help?

We are here for you!

marigold.. Awesome on the 18 months! There is nothing "only" about that! One day clean for an addict is a miracle! You can do this too dgirl.... At first I didn't like your user name but if you can see that for what it really is... drugs defeated us and our only way to succeed is to surrender to that fact... you'll have a running start!

I love you!

{{{{hugs}}}}

Jana40503 · Senior Member

Oh, your questions weren't answered.

Just find a meeting and show up. No registration, no forms, only your first name. We get sponsors by going to meetings and meeting other women in the rooms that give us hope, that we believe we can trust and asking one of them, with more time and knowledge of the steps than us, to sponsor us. It's an honor to be asked to sponsor so don't be afraid to ask!

drugfree · Senior Member

There is hope to overcome this. I read this and thought of a couple of the people in my areas fellowship. There are a few people in my area who came into this wonderful program at you age. They went to a lot of meetings and did all the do's. They got sponsors, they found friends, they surrendered to this program. They showed me that this program can work at any age. There were three that came in at the same time, and through their determination, they all just recieved their one year. They have a life and a future today. This program works if your willing to work it. It's very tough in the beginning, but very rewarding. Instead of living to die, I've learned how to live to enjoy. I consider myself one of the younger people in this program. I came in at 23, and i was scared of not being able to relate to anyone older. What I found that mentally we were all at the same age. That if i could look past the age, i could be friends with them. I've had the most fun in the past year than I have ever. I learned how to love myself, and respect myself. I learned that I could be succesful and that i wasn't bound by my errors. There is hope for anyone at any age. I choose life today and hopefully you will too

Surrender · Veteran Member

hi i saw you in the 'room' online last night, i'm glad you're here...
my problem started at 13 i guess and by your age i was starting to get into heroin, coke, speed, etc...all i have to say is that if you can do it at your age, you will save yourself years and years of pain and suffering (if you didn't die out there that is) i couldn't, so i am always skeptical of people so young, and that's really fucked up of me i think. honestly that was my initial thought when you said your age, etc. only b/c i have been there and i was in no way ready to get clean, but why should everyone's story be the same as mine? then immediately i thought of a girl at my club, who i just met last night who is 16 with ONE YEAR of sobriety. amazing. you can do this if you really want it. for you. not for your friends, not for people 'talking shit' about you...people will talk shit about you sober too, trust me. you have to be ready to want something more for yourself and then ready to make it happen. you are worth it and you do deserve more than the hell we put ourselves through. i am glad you're here.

defeatedgirl123 · Veteran Member

thanks for the input everybody. my user name is actually a song title from the band comeback kid. i don't really have anyone to talk to except my friend Nicole. i just need one person to help me get started and she said that she would do anything i needed her too. now knowing that at meetings they don't need any of my information is a big relief. i hope to start going to meetings soon. it's only my second day clean and today was hell. you guys are so supportive. thanks. i started getting into heroin and coke at the age of 11. its been a rough 6 years. I've almost died 4 times from overdose and I've been in jail 3 times for drugs and alcohol. before i found this group i didn't really want to get clean. but my best friend Nicole i hate seeing her so sad and she said that i should do this for myself. and now i want to be clean and experience life without drugs. but really thinking of life without drugs scares me because its all I've ever known and i don't really know what to do with myself. it's only 2:40 and I'm craving so bad. i knew it would be hard but i didn't think it would be this hard.

brian107 · Newbie

dgirl i know how you feel. i am not that much older then you and i have been having a lot of trouble getting sober. i found that the best thing to do is find someone you trust that you know won't yell and get all upset and talk to them. hopefully they can help you make a plan and tell your parents in a way that won't get "in trouble" but rather help find a solution. i am afraid of going to a treatment center as well but i am going to go because the more i talk to people the less scared i am. good luck and i feel for you heroin is not a fun drug and is even less fun to get off. i will keep you in my thoughts and remember just don't use today whatever you do.

Jana40503 · Senior Member

defeatedgirl123 wrote:

thanks for the input everybody. my user name is actually a song title from the band comeback kid. i don't really have anyone to talk to except my friend Nicole. i just need one person to help me get started and she said that she would do anything i needed her too. now knowing that at meetings they don't need any of my information is a big relief. i hope to start going to meetings soon. it's only my second day clean and today was hell. you guys are so supportive. thanks. i started getting into heroin and coke at the age of 11. its been a rough 6 years. I've almost died 4 times from overdose and I've been in jail 3 times for drugs and alcohol. before i found this group i didn't really want to get clean. but my best friend Nicole i hate seeing her so sad and she said that i should do this for myself. and now i want to be clean and experience life without drugs. but really thinking of life without drugs scares me because its all I've ever known and i don't really know what to do with myself. it's only 2:40 and I'm craving so bad. i knew it would be hard but i didn't think it would be this hard.

Your honesty is really refreshing! It's always scary to do something we've never done before! We know what the results of what we've been doing will be, and even when they are bad, they are predictable. Something new is a mystery but I can promise you that a life without drugs is a MUCH better life! Even when things are shitty, and we get through shitty without dope, we grow so much as people, we gain strength and self esteem and things NOBODY can take from us! It's worth it honey!

I'm glad you have Nicole and I know you're feeling like shit and I know you want to use... I KNOW! It's OK not to use, even when your body and head are screaming to do it. Just don't, a day, a minute a second at a time. I really encourage you to find a meeting TONIGHT! If you get sick at the meeting, it's OK, lots of us have. We get it. It's huge to have friends but it's crucial to have the support of other recovering addicts. Nicole can give you the motivation (not wanting to hurt her) but another recovering addict is where I get the HOPE and the BELIEF that I can stay clean too! Find a meeting and GO!!!

Keep writing about it too. Telling on myself, my urges, my cravings, etc. takes the power out of the disease... BIG TIME!

-- Edited by Jana40503 at 17:34, 2009-02-17

TorturedSoul · Veteran Member

You can do this. You sound like a very smart individual who knows what you want. Now you just have to get it. There are so many alternatives to getting treatment. Not just rehab. There is detox centers. They only require a stay of 3 to 5 days. It gets you through the w/d with ease. And there is outpatient drug/alcohol centers that will treat you. And you spend 0 time in patient. And of course there are meetings. Do some research you have many options and support out there. You can do this.

defeatedgirl123 · Veteran Member

thanks everybody. everyday when i get home from school and i see what people have written it makes me want to stay clean more and more and more. i ordered the NA book and now i just need to find a meeting and go. today is day 3 of being clean and its going pretty well actually. even though i feel like crap i can get used to that and just knowing that I'm doing myself a huge favor it feels so good.

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