I will be UNAFRAID my thoughts will be on my new associations. People who are not using and found a new way of life. So long as I follow that way, I have NOTHING TO FEAR.
For many years I have lived in fear. I feared I had no higher power. Or worse I feared my higher power had it out for me.
It seems Im hearing alot in meetings these days about fear. Some fear relapse. Others fear the spring party season ( like there was ever a season for partying ) . It makes me remember how much fear I used to live in. Fear of going to work high. fear of getting hurt and thus piss tested. Fear of running out. Fear of driving because everything on the car and in it was illegal. Fear Fear FEAR
Fear drove my life. Through a complete surrender I am free today of fear. Its amazing. A very unexpected gift of recovery. Just for today I really am unafraid. And my load is greatly lightened.
Peace yall. Anthony
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The fundamental delusion of humanity , is to suppose that I am here and you are out there .
Fear drove me to get clean fear of dying a users death.
My Dad who's been clean many years told me once Fear will motivate you one day to clean up, he was right , I had scoffed at him back then thinkng nothing would stop me from using, I was wrong.
Fear, I still live with constant fear but I also have courage today to fend off those fears . I walk through them today with mighty courage LOL.
I avoided so much before, I did nothing waiting for things to go away but they only built up into piles of bigger mess's .I drowned myself in drugs and alcohol never getting enough always wanting more.
Today I am able to come to terms with life on it's terms, not easy but I get through it and feels a sense of accomplishment when I do.
Fear , lack of faith, today I have faith we can get past anything.
