ever feel like you are looking in someplace where you know you should be and all you can do is unfog the window enough to see what is happening in your families life wondering if you will ever belong? I feel like that all the time. The one place I should belong no matter what I can't even be there. Then I get told that after 9 years of loving someone was a lie. Shit how much more can any human take?? my week is so busy I don't know if I will remember to breathe. I mean it is normal ppl breathe but I feel like I cannot get my head above water to save my life andat times I wish someone would just hold me under. I am grateful Ihave a neighbor who has came to be a great friend he reads me quite well but to be honest it scares me what if i lose that too? Life is getting really difficult to deal with I am extremly overwhelmed with all tht is on my plate. Any suggestions?????????
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
I guess we're all just square pegs trying to fit into round holes, and that takes time and vigilance Manon .
Somehow find away out of your head try meditating for awhile just let things quiet down inside and find a restful peaceful place to hide for a bit, talk with your higher power.
I know a lot of the feeling you have , I have them too but I know I have to quiet them down and not let them rule me.
Hang in there lady I'm rooting for you and thinking about you and keep you in prayer.
The best way for me to stop focusing on me is to go to my homegroup and make that damn pot of coffee. Set the meeting up, break it down. Do some service work it works if you work it. I was group discussion leader on Friday night and it was awesome. The Friday before I gave the chips out. Last night I read the announcements in my homegroup. I announce anything I need to do or to hear! I keep the focus on me and my recovery by doing for others also. If you have a car offer that newcomer a ride home or to another meetings if you can. This is what I have done!
Yeah, get busy busy busy.. Many hospitals need volunteers in the neonatal units. Just to be rockers. Babies that need rocking. Many are addicted and its a 12 step call straight from God.
Animal shelters always need folks to just come in and help. They have thier hands full even more in this economy. People are just dumping pets off.
Nursing homes..Those Folks just want you to be with them. read them the paper . listen and maybe even talk a bit. A short walk can mean the world to someone else's life.
It doesn't take much time. And its value to you is immeasurable.
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The fundamental delusion of humanity , is to suppose that I am here and you are out there .
