So.....i took a big step today. I acknowledged my problem. I also cleared my side of the street with someone that I was way over due on amends even tho they had passed from their addiction. Not to mention I tossed my pipe... the drugs i had... asked for help because i was tired of running. Tired of the same cycle and i dont want that. so today is my start over date of sobriety. I now restored my motavation!!! Just thought I would share that. See you all later tonight at the meeting... idk who else will be there but I know I will! Bye everyone
Well i'm real bummed out , the men's meeting I go to has now closed due to lack of interest.
I showed up last night and there were 4 of us in the meeting, though it was probably the best meeting we've had in my opinion in the last years almost that i have been going
A guy was there who shared about his relapse after 1-1/2 years clean, he was on prop 36 probation with 6 years prison lid hanging over his head, he ended up getting a DUI and drug possesion charges on this relapse which may turn out to be a felony which would give him his 3rd strike which would then give him if sentenced on this last strike 25 to life in prison.
I offered to be there in court with him today gave him my number and told him if he wanted NA to be there with him give me a call, so far no call.
So jails, institutions, death OR recovery those are our options today.
Greatful I decided to go to that meeting last night a few regulars there shared and i have always enjoyed listening to there shares and they will be missed greatly. I got the meeting schedule and will find another home, some where. I like the monday meetings it's a week starter for me, most mondays kinda suck so a meeting is good for me then to keep my week focused.
Catching a cold slept bad and resless last night only have a little word to do today so will get that done and come home and rest up some, hate feeling crappy like this dont do sick very well LOL.
