Hey family,  Shannon an addict that needs to keep coming back cause she doesn't know enough just yet!

You know I have been on and off again with my sponsor she fired me, rehired me, fired me last Sunday, then yesterday got a phone call from her and she rehired me again.  I am like ok What is going on here.  I mean I have never been fired and rehired so many times. 

I am not going to allow her to contaminate my recovery with her sick ways.  I am not allowing contamination into my recovery any longer.  I am not giving my peace, joy and happiness away any longer.  Today I am working on being meek.  Which means being under control with my emotions.  I am not going to allow her garbage to affect my spirit I have been in.  See I have this thing I don't care what other's think about me.  I don't let affect me anymore.  I do what I got to do and move on.  I watched Joel Osteen yesterday and he spoke to me in his message about giving away my power.  I refuse to let other's affect the way I am going to react.  I am just going to sit there and take their garbage and dump it and not let into my spirit.  I am not going to be weak, lowly, I am not letting anything affect my day for today.  I am going to just roll with the punches and be nice, calm, cool and collected just for today.  I will build character in this sort of way.  I was unsure if I was going to take this lady back as my sponsor but I am and going to practice the opposite of what she does in the meetings.  She plays with kids in the meetings, She speaks to whoever is around her in the meetings, I am going to not disrupt the atmosphere of recovery for another addict in the rooms.  This is called self control. I am in there for my recovery and not her's.  I can learn that if I don't make meetings I don't know what is going on in the fellowhip.  See let me give a perfect example.  My sponsorship sister went and told our sponsor that There was a woman's rap.  My sponsor wanted to know where at and there was only 1 meeting left for last night.  My sponsorship sister said she wants to know where it is at.  I am not chasing down my sponsor to tell her if she wanted to know badly enough she could have called me, came up to me and asked.  My recovery is my recovery and her recovery is her recovery.  This just showed me right how many meetings my sponsor has been at, and who she does and doesn't speak to in the rooms.  I am not around the gossipers, I am in with the recovering addicts who knew where it was at.  She informed me she wants me to do more service work.  I do service work I put the chairs up after the meeting every meeting I am in. I read at the beginning of the meetings.  I watch my sponsorship service work with homegroup and none of them do it.  I am like they should practice what they want me to model, but I am modeling for them right now.  I am seeing growth in myself I think.  I am not allowing anyone to steal my joy, peace, serenity and they aren't going to get my reactions anymore either.  I am peace clean and serene just for today.