My choice of drugs use to be painkillers for about 2 yrs. off & on! I loved the way they made me feel!!I felt happy & content until I kept needing more to feel the high and to just feel normal. Then when I ran out, I started to feel the withdrawals, flu like symptoms. It was painful and scary! I didn't want to lose my job and everything else. Thank God I was able to finally put a stop to taking them. It's been 4 months now. Then I started to smoke pot thinking I would only smoke it when I had severe pain in my neck. It did help with my pain however, I loved the pot and smoked it everyday for 4 months. I find that I get addicted easily to anything that is mind altering. I started to gain a lot of weight and got very lazy. I didn't like that at all. So now that I have 3 days clean and I find life is very boring!!! Can anyone relate to this? Please give me some words of wisdom.
bordem is not a good place to be it can trigger several addicts I agree with Anthony that is a good read as an addict I have found that my addiction manifest in all areas of my life it is just part of being an addict
If no one has told you today that they love you let me be the first I love you Keep coming back this is not going to be the last bad day you have but it does get better and easier with time
-- Edited by Manon at 18:22, 2009-01-02
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get a basic text and start reading get some personal knowledge on the subject of sobriety and find clean things to do like go to meetings and na activities
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some of us win some of us lose with god and this program i will be a winner
there are some very good physiological reasons for your feelings of apathy. when we use drugs, our brains throw off endorphines which make us feel elated. the trouble is that the drug use make our brains throw off more than it can maintain and we run out, which feels like boredom or depression. the best way to replace those endorphines is with physical exercise, which, coincidently, is the #1 treatment for depression. So eat well, sleep well, take vitamins, exercise daily, and you'll feel a lot more exited about life.
Someone once told me that you are as addicted to the lifestyle as you are to the drug. Lets face it doing drugs is a full time job. Once I got clean I really had to relearn what I liked to do. I know for me I started doing drugs at such a young age that I never learned what my hobbies were what I liked to do> Drugs were my hobby. The only thing I can say is for me I am just now learning how to entertain myself. I have used this time to try new things. That may help you. What do you like to do? If you don't know find out. Try doing something that you would have never done before. Such as cooking, rock climbing. Whatever it may be for you. I found when I started getting clean I really had to get to know myself. Which is a daily learning process.
I was just talking to a friend who recently relapsed about this subject...Get involved!! I know its hard for us addicts because we like to isolate or whatev but I started doing service work right away and yea it wasn't always a big riot but at the very least it got me out of my crazy head. It still does! I'm not sure about your area but in mine there is always tons of 12-step fellowship activities. They may seem cheesy at first but once you make friends it is so much fun! Trust me I get bored super easily....
i remember that sate of mind very good. i felt completely empty everytime i stopped smoking. i felt llike i ve lost the contact to myselfe. as longer as i stay clean. i get more and more back from myselfe.
In the beginning I thought like would be soo boring without using... I was used to the chaos and drama that came with all the drugs I used. This thought became the most ironic thing in my world.... Using wasn't fun anymore, but i didn't I could have fun without drugs..... I have found that once i became involved in the fellowship of NA I discovered what real fun was. I did more in the past year of being clean than I had in a long while. I went camping, conventions, beaches, and cottageing. Plus all the good time just hanging out with other members. The greatest part about it all, is that I can remember it. Life on drugs just seemed to pass by... i never knew what day it was and was always shocked that so much time had passed. The year being clean went slow because I was enjoying every moment. I've gained self confidence, self love, and many other gifts. I had to give myself time to adjust to this new way to life. Life without drugs is the greatest experiance of my life
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people who mind don't matter, and people who matter don't mind- Dr. Seuss
That's so true, Drugfree. I've also discovered a whole new level of fun. Even fellowshipping after a meeting is entertaining because the conversation is quality and in the midst of it you know beautiful things are happening. Just being in a room with clean addicts feels awesome because we're alive. Miracles are fun....
To take up where Anthony left,,,,yes,the Chapter says Life may again become meaningless,monotonous and boring,,we may tire mentally in repeating our new ideas and tire physically in our new activities, yet we know that if we fail to repeat them we will surely take up our old practices.(Recovery and Relapse) And then it goes on to encourage us that this may be the time of our greatest growth in recovery and feeling good and exited about the things we have. The only constant in my life has been change and as long as I was willing to go along with the changing tides,,my life has been very well ! Thank God,,Im not boring and that life is not boring anymore,its never a dull moment. as of now Im struggling with my study course assignment and though difficult it is exiting !!! Simply cause it has challenged my comfort zone.
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
I don't know if you have monitored the site since your post, though I hope you have. I agree, the thought of life without drugs.... seemed like all the fun would be gone w/o them. Almost impossible for me to consider when I first started coming to the rooms. After using for 38 years, I was content with pot.
How would I have fum if I couldn't use??? Well I came to realize that if I couldn't have fun without drugs, what did that say about how much "fun" was I really having?? In fact, was I really having "fun"?
I wasn't using drugs, drugs were using me.
Once I admitted I was an addict, and that made my life unmanagable...I stopped using. Why should I pick up again if I never could really have fun doing it, and I could never get enough?
If you are battling your demons, give yourself a break. Go to some meetings and share how you feel. The only requirement for mmembership is the desire to stop using.
Hey roxy... I hear ya on it is a big change in not being high. It feels like your adapting to this whole new life and its scary because its just so new. Yesterday was my first offical day clean. And I have been smoking for 5 years..3 yrs off and on and the past 2 years heavily. But keep your head up and you can do it! :) It will be worth it.
