"We are no longer fighting fear anger guilt, self-pity, or depression."
Basic Text p.27
As addicts, many of us experience depression from time to time. When we feel depressed, we may be tempted to isolate ourselves. However, if we do this, our depression may turn to despair. We can't afford to let depression lead us back to using.
Instead, we try to go about the routine of our lives. We make meeting attendance and contact with our sponsor top priorities. Sharing with others about our feelings may let us know we aren't the only ones who have been depressed in recovery. Working with a newcomer can work wonders for our own state of mind. And, most importantly, prayer and meditation can help us tap the power we need to survive depression.
We practice acceptance and remember that feelings like depression will unquestionably pass in time. Rather than struggle with our feelings, we accept them and ask for the strength to walk through them.
Just for Today: I accept that my feelings of depression won't last forever. I will talk openly about my feelings with my sponsor or another person who understands.
2 weeks now been in a depression but I think yesterday it started to pass I finally had a good day of dredging for gold
Sometimes it's hard to identify whats going on and the idea I have is to just get through it, try not to make other people miserable try to be somewhat hopeful this too shall pass.
I made a list of things going on in my life it's a lot of stuff life on it's terms and I knew what to do maybe the acceptance of it all helped me through without needing or wanting to use , that never really came up so that's a positive thing for sure.
Today my last day of vacation and I am working I look in the mirror and ask myself WHY ARE YOU WORKING lol, things have to get done, I need to $$, I need to keep myself busy moving forward in this negative economy I need and love to work but the loser side of me wants to lay down and cry in my wheaties WAH WAH lol
I haven't made it to a meeting in awhile I lost my home group and dont know where to go but am going to start looking I need to just sit down some where and hear some recovery I dont even need to share I just need to sit and absorb hearing others recovery and how this program is saving there life, it's weird but that all I need most of the time I have started listening to speaker meetings online again to get by but it's not the same.
Anyhow this is the seaon for depression, holidays , economy mean tough times, winter blues. Don't let it get you down keep moving stay clean this too shall pass.
Anyhow this is the seaon for depression, holidays , economy mean tough times, winter blues. Don't let it get you down keep moving stay clean this too shall pass.
it doesn't have to be that way. my sponsor made me write soooo many gratitude lists that I got tired of complaining real fast. and BigV, winters in Cali? pulease . go to some AA meetings till you find another home NA group.
Yeah gonna make a few meetings this week for sure.
I am greatful Dean for all that i have and have nots, sometimes I think my mind just wants a break from all this thinking going on I try not to do to much of that thinking stuff but seems I gotta keep the game plan rolling putting a little effort in means calculating and planning.
I think this infection that I have in my leg got me pretty scared and worried I even cancelled a trip that I had planned to stay close to home incase it got worse, it was staph but the antibiotics have worked and its pretty much healed up well now got lucky there .
Thanks Dean always good to have your perspective and suggestions, will do on the meetings this week.
Hey BigV, I didn't know that you were fighting an infection in you leg. That does sound scary and could be depressing. It sucks when you think that you're not going to recovery from a physical problem. We are at that age where it takes twice as long to heal. I had a rotator cuff injury to one shoulder then the other, the last two years. One took 6 months and the other 9months to heal. Right now it's some kind of acheles tendon thing (or planta facia) in left foot, that's been hurting for about 6 months. For some reason I won't schedule a dr. appointment, so I shouldn't be biatching about it. Anyway cheer up man, you're a white man (highest probability for success) , living in the greatest country in the world, in arguably the best state in the country, working for yourself, clean and sober, and mining for Gold! How cool is that? Want to trade places for awhile? The land of sunshine and coconuts gets a little boring from time to time. If I could ride my motorcycle to Monterey Big sir, and Mt. Shasta..... I wouldn't need any viagra for 50 years. not that I need any now
LOL Dean you crack me UP come pay my taxes here in sunny cali.... and they want to raise them to fix the 46 BILLION dollar deficit HAH my republican party has abandoned swarzenager the buffoon.
Anyhow I got to a nooner today OH MAN DID I NEED THAT !!! sheesh not kidding really needed to be there, step 1 study lots of newcomers and old timers I did share a bit which helped me to help someone else, but it's right where I needed to be with my people sitting in a room and absorbing like a sponge all the great recovery.
I still work for someone else plus my stuff still made under $40k kinda depressing in itself but gives me a roof and food payed all my bills stayed on top of credit cards UGH!! the infection is better like I mentioned so that one less thing to worry on just need to keep everything real clean these days, staph bacteria is rampant now in this country so wash those little scratchs too I know you work too so watch those injurys close.
The program talks about depression and isolation that is exactly what I end up doing during those times, but the pressure builds up and becomes unacceptably uncomfortable so just have to take action and do some foot work and pen n paper work even.
Lifes good today got some stuff patched up with my Dad some what, fell off with the girlfriend last night but we're good again LOL lifes always got a curve ball to throw at us we just have to get through it without much damage...
Im with you in this feeling too buddy,, an automatic consequence of being in sub-zero, lonely spaces..... I know however that this too shall soon pass.
everything must change,, nothin stays the same, thats the ways of time,, no-one and nothing stays unchanged. The young become the old, and mysteries do unfold, and, the winter turns to spring, my wounded heart must heal,, nothing much to say,, cept that no-one and nothing stays unchanged. There are not many things in life , that I can be sure of. Just that the rain comes form the clouds, the sun lights up the skies,, and humming birds do fly,fly,fly !
(song sung by J.Williams,,with the Quincy Jones Orchestra)
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
WAH WAH lol
. go to some AA meetings till you find another home NA group. 
and they want to raise them to fix the 46 BILLION dollar deficit HAH my republican party has abandoned swarzenager the buffoon.
