I am having such a bad day I really wish life would get back to normal I miss my son and before I can see him I have to go thru a IOP program and due to my health problems I am not able to do so till after the New year The doctors are trying to keep me outta psyc inpatient but it just seems almost impossible right now it is taking every thing in me to maintain composure I am not sure what else I can do but shit I can't use or it will be longer for me to see my son. I miss him so much it hurts I know I did this to myself nowI am having to deal with it but my health issues are not helping any I really don't know what to do So I am calling my Dr. after hours to see what we can do. I just feel so hopeless as well as powerless it really sucks but what do ya do I just wanna cry and I have been crying my share today
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Times like what your describing Manon is when I get down on my knees and do some praying and meditating and crying. Some times life just piles up and I feel really weak and vulnerable and life just starts getting really stressful I feel like my head will explode .
So it's time to just surrender and let your higher power build you up, we start from the dirt up and the solid ground that we stand or kneel on is a higher power who is above all of this stuff in our lives.
You don't need to be locked away you dont need medications to stop all of this you just need to surrender and let God or your higher power work in you life and in you mind, wrap yourself in some love and just lay there for a bit someone once suggested 15 minutes to me you'd be surprised just how fast that goes by I often will find myself on my knees for 1/2 hour or more and not really want to even get back up, if you get to that place of letting go you just dont want to come back out :)
