Hi. My name is Sarah and Im in my 2nd month clean. I am feeling really alone right now and struggling with each day. Where I live there arent many NA meetings, and while I have some very supportive friends and family, I still feel entirely isolated, like no-one understands me. I am hoping that having some contact through this site will help me and maybe one day I will be able to help someone else.
Hi. My name is Sarah and Im in my 2nd month clean. I am feeling really alone right now and struggling with each day. Where I live there arent many NA meetings, and while I have some very supportive friends and family, I still feel entirely isolated, like no-one understands me. I am hoping that having some contact through this site will help me and maybe one day I will be able to help someone else.
-- Edited by BigV at 10:29, 2008-11-29
Hey Sarah,
For me there was a difference about being "lonely...or just being alone" I am very proud that you are in your second month clean.
Do you have a sponsor?
Have you begun working the steps yet?
Also for me the first 30 days were the worst.
Afterward I got a home group. I bought a NA HOW AND WHY WORK BOOK and I got with a sponsor who told me how to actually "work" the steps. Then I started to find a new way to live.
They say in the rooms stick around for the miracle to happen. Since I started working the steps I have actually seen 2 MIRACLES ALREADY in my own personal recovery!
I started to empty my brain of old thought processes, and new thoughts and a new way of life started to emerge. LIFE IS SO MUCH BETTER!
Do you have a basic text, I know in my first sick thinking 30 days my sponsor suggested that I read Who is an Addict for each and every day. I remember going I can't take it anymore. But now it seems that is my favorite chapter cause anytime we have a suggestion I am saying let's read Who is an Addict. I still have to remember how sick my thinking was in the beginning. Calling your sponsor and other members in the fellowhip does help a lot when I get lonely sometimes I will tell my sponsor I am coming over and I don't care if you are dressed or laying in your bed I will be there and not using. She has even offered to let me spend the night when I have been really wanting to use. I love my sponsor to death. I spent three hours on the phone with another addict last night till 3 am this morning. I just had to talk to her she has so much going on and I love her to death also. She has a lot of good recovery going in her life right now.
I was in the same sitiuation in early recovery, with regards to limited NA meetings. So I went to as many AA meetings as I could (Read Daily!) to keep from feeling lonely and giving my disease an opportunity to convince me that I was better off with my "Old Friends".
I had to make new friends in the program. You'll find that the majority of AA members also have had drug addiction, that they address as well, while attending AA. I'm not disrespecting NA here, just saying that if you're not finding enough meetings to attend, you're sure to find more AA meetings and they will welcome you to those groups. There is no reason to sit at home and be lonely.
Thanks everyone for replying it really helps a lot. I have found a few AA meetings (thanks for the suggestion!) so will give that a go. And yes I have started Step 1, and I have a brilliant sponsor but I still am struggling with calling him I feel like I am burdening him with my problems. I have never had anyone to rely on or call when I am not feeling good I guess it will just take a while to get used to having someone who cares.
I just had lunch with a friend. She is not an addict, but is facing a huge life situation right now, and has no-one to talk to about it. She said she just wished there was a place she could go to for a hug or some support, where she can just say how she is feeling and get it off her chest. It made me realize that no matter how much pain I am in right now, at least I have NA, and I am not as alone as I think I am.
Hi Sarah: Just read your blog. I know how if feels to "feel alone" I just joined this site an hour ago. I am trying to famaliarize myself with this site and came across your blog. I hope you are feeling better and please write to me anytime. I don't know how to begin this thing but I am going to try. Love Dana
Remember we might be by ourselves at times but we are never alone.
I look at it several different ways when I feel whats being described I know that my higher power is with me, when I feel lonely I reach out to others dont have to be people in recovery all the time matter of fact they seldom are. One reason I have pets is I live by myself and need some kind of dang company and I really dont like being around people all the time anyhoooo
And you have to remember there are a lot of recovering addicts how there just trying to get through the day clean so your not along there, some struggle some it's become a new way of life that part takes some time getting used to but it does happen if you stay clean, work the program of recovery it will happen. Theres tough times nothing good comes easy so easy does it, keep it simple dont complicate life to much slow down and turn whatever is bothering you over to a power greater then your problem.
Thanks for writing. Yea I am feeling a bit better now thanks. This site really helps, plus I am making the 1 meeting a week here where I amalthough it is cancelled next week due to Christmas! How are you doing? I had my 60 day birthday a couple of weeks ago which felt great. Doing my step work is helping. I used to be so resistant to working the program, but found that when I just let go and ask my HP to help, slowly life seemed just that little bit brighter. Sending you a big hug..
and I really dont like being around people all the time anyhoooo
