On Thursday I celebrated 9 Months. It was bitter sweet.
Me and my husband were going neck and neck with our clean time. He works fulltime and he is going full time for his MASTERS degree.
I woke up a few days before Thursday and he made me coffee. I take prescribed medication 2 forms. Not getting into here, It is an outside issue but I do not abuse my medication.
I go inside my purse a full bottle that I filled 2 days before, and there were only 2 pills left. My husband started taking one than another and he couldnt STOP. By the time I woke up he injested 71 PILLS.
He left me 2 pills. I made him throw up, These were LONG ACTED pills. He has already had 3 HEART ATTACKS in his LIFE. He had no concept that the longer he kept these pills in his system the more the medication was to release in his system. A STROKE< HEART ATTACK or DEATH was certain.
I said EITHER get your ass in THE CAR or I am divorcing you. He got in the car. I rushedhim to the closet ER.
He drank Charcol. He was in ICU for 2 days. He now has a blood clot in his Heart. I had 9 months on THURSDAY.
He collected his white key tag. At least he came back and this time has his life.
THIS IS A DEADLY DISEASE.
Your either working on your recovery, or your working on your relapse and you might not live.
I am so sorry about what you are going through lately. I hope you can keep your clean time. I have six months this month my self on the 12th of november. Hope he is doing okay.
congrats on 9 months honey bear, ........Yellow, my name is ____, I am an addict. It represents the sun. We can see it when we get up in the morning, instead of coming in after a night of using. There is nothing yellow about being in recovery. We're also pregnant with the program at 9 months. How do we get it? We don't pick up! 71 pills overnight ? that's more than drama. was he evaluated for a suicide attempt ?. hope hes ok, and you too.
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Thanks, Honeybear. Hope YOU are holding up ok. I'm very sorry for your situation. It reminds me that anything I put before my recovery, I'm likely to lose. I'll pray for your husband. Congrats on 9 months!!
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wow! I get like that with tortilla chips and salsa . Congrats on 9 months Honey bear, sorry you had all that drama. Praying for you husband.
Cheetos and crack fall into the same category with me EXCESSIVE ABUSE
Honey bear sorry just trying to bring a little laugher where there probably isn't much, so sorry to hear about your husband obviously he wasn't ready that's some real serious abuse. I got into a similar thing with my last relapse with pain pills first one then 3 then 9 then 20 and it didn't take long to spiral down for 2 weeks then finally crashing on DOC (drugs of choice) for one night and that opened my eyes and got me honest and take a real hard look at what got me there.
Reasons and excuses if thats all you get then he's not ready if you get an honest sincere " I made a mistake and am going to do something about this " then he's got a chance but he's got to be willing to look at this honestly and realisticly and see that he's killing himself, and find out WHY?
It takes a hard honest look into our psychy as to why we do these things and sometimes it's hard to face who we are, at this point what choice does he have he has to see what he's doing to himself and to others sure we're all selfish but at some point if we want to recover we have to FEEL the pain and be sick and tired of it and deal with that pain by recognizing it and taking responsibilty for it.
A lot of people simply don't want to take responsibilty for there addiction and simply keep using till it kills them or gets them locked away.
The good thing is you and me and others here have taken this responsibilty that seperates us from them, we got willing, we got honest and we got openminded enough to do something about our problems for what it's worth we can be an example that drugs addicts do recover, when they have the desire .
And it takes continued vigilance on a daily basis its not just for a few days or months or years it's a life time but we still take it one day at a time that keeps it simple and out of tomorrow.
Even when others are using around us we have to keep focused on US on ourselves and whats right for us, so do not let this effect your recovery other then maybe geting greatful and maybe being helpful to him just don't risk your own recovery make sure he gets to the proper support which will come outside of your relationship.
CONGRATULATIONS on 9 months worth of daily miracles
Hi hun !! You are one of the strongest people that I know and I hope you never change that. No matter what you go through, you always keep your head on straight. I am so proud of you and your husband for making it through this situation and returning to meetings. I love you girl and I want you to know that you are a role model to me and soooo much more.
Hope your husband is feeling better now Honey Bear, and glad to know that he is back to making meetings too, congrats on the awesome miracle of 9 months clean, way to go, keep being strong and thanks for sharing, fellowship hugs and love.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Hi hun !! You are one of the strongest people that I know and I hope you never change that. No matter what you go through, you always keep your head on straight. I am so proud of you and your husband for making it through this situation and returning to meetings. I love you girl and I want you to know that you are a role model to me and soooo much more.
congrats on 9 months honey bear, ........Yellow, my name is ____, I am an addict. It represents the sun. We can see it when we get up in the morning, instead of coming in after a night of using. There is nothing yellow about being in recovery. We're also pregnant with the program at 9 months. How do we get it? We don't pick up! 71 pills overnight ? that's more than drama. was he evaluated for a suicide attempt ?. hope hes ok, and you too.
Hi...Yes a shrink went in but he wasnt trying to kill himself he JUST COULDNT STOP every 15 minutes. He just took 3-4 more. The obsession took over.
Today he has 18 days again but at least he is alive
. Congrats on 9 months Honey bear, sorry you had all that drama. Praying for you husband.
