Well it started when i was about 8 years old i started smoking and drinking and never really stopped and by the time i was 13 i was locked up in a juvenile justice centre for people under 16 because of my durg and alcohol use i would steal to buy drugs and alcohol and i would burgle houses and even started to mug people on the streets with knifes and other various weapons just to get money for drugs and alcohol and then from i was 13 i was being locked up just all the time i would get out and within a week of being out i would be back inside again and then i stoped using drugs after a wile then one of my best friends commited suicide because of drugs and then i got depressed and would just lay in my house drinking and smoking pot sniffing taking pills just anything i could get my hands on and this was when i was about 14 or 15 and then i returned to juvenile justice centre for a period of time and told myself i would stay off everything when i got released but when i did get let out it just all started again i was smoking pot everyday drinking and getting into trouble stealing cars and other various stuff then it got to the point one night when i was taking drugs i just for no reason smashed a bottle and stabbed a person various times on the head and once again got put back in juvenile and i have been using ever since but about 2 weeks ago i decided to stay off everything im still smoking ciggerates but thats it i have just gone off everything with out much help apart from my mother helps me all the time and im very grateful for that and when i was using i didnt realise how much stress and pressure i was putting her under so now i have been clean off everything for about 2 weeks or so im goin into my 3rd week now and finding it very hard but when i feel like using i just go round to my mothers house and we go for walks with the dogs and stuff and its makes it easier so hopefully now that im not using i will actually live a free man and not behind bars or anything else just normal and i have tried to get employment but no one will employ me because of my criminal record but im going to try and start doing something myself just washing windows or something like that when my mind is off drugs well at least a bit
well thanks for listening thats my story and now im going to meetings and stuff and it really helping me so thanks for reading and take care
Hello, Niall. Welcome and thanks for your post. This forum is a wonderful place of fellowship for people like us. We understand each other like no one else can. We share a common bond of addiction and recovery. Glad you are here and keep coming back. Keep posting to let us know how you are doing and keep making meetings, that's where our long term support comes from. Again, welcome and good luck.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Wow, you just told a large portion of my husband's life story, the only difference was, he never stabbed anyone...but he's been through every other thing you wrote about (and a bit more too...). That's just crazy to read though.
Hang on to the day, just for today you can stay clean. Don't worry about tomrrow or next week...just don't pick up today. I can attest to the fact that it is quite difficult to get a job with a criminal record. Damn, down here some jobs run a credit check even~!
I've been really trying to focus on imagining that I have all the things I want, a great job, my own home, spiritual well-being, etc. etc. Just hoping the universe catches up with my heart's desires someday soon. The power of positive thinking...let's see how it goes~!
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"We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars." ~Oscar Wilde~
thanks fo your replys peoplr i thought there was a bit too much information on there to post but i just thought what da hell lol.. thats only the high lights really just to sum it all up alot of other things happened to that led up to drug using and stuff like that but thanks for the replys anyway :)
Keep us posted on how things are going~! You can always kill time writing here on this board, or just reading old threads! Loads of great stuff here on this board to read~!
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"We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars." ~Oscar Wilde~
yea i do it all the time i only found this website last night and just thought i would join its amazing how many people have actually stayed off drugs and other things for so long and i only going into my third week and its still quite hard but getting through it i just read all the old posts and stuff too keep my ind off things
Just keep in mind...anyone with years, or decades clean, all started at day one. Then had to get through the next day without using in order to get two days...and the days turn to weeks, and weeks turn to years. But they all just start with one day, that day is today.
And all the knowledge or wisdom we share, either comes from learning it the old fashioned hard way (by messing up thoroughly) or it's been shared with us from someone else who learned the old fashioned way (by messing up thoroughly)...
I read once: a smart man learns from his mistakes. a wise man learns from the mistakes of others.
Try to learn as much as you can from others, it saves you pain and grief~!!
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"We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars." ~Oscar Wilde~
