For those of you wondering I am due any day now. I am excited for Alaskas arrival, she is an Angel, after nine months I am ready. The first Saturday of every month my husband and I are picked up by my sponsor and given a ride to a speaker meeting. On the way home from the meeting I was talking to my sponsor about feeling as though I am sliding backwards. Here I am on the 3rd step and felt as though I was losing it. My husband smokes ciggarettes, I am an ex-smoker (the worst lol). I told my sponsor that I was having trouble with control issues. Well, she looks at me and says, "guess what?, you are on the first step again." I asked her,m "what do you mean?" well, I did not realize that I needed to apply the steps to each and every situation or thing in my life. I had admitted that I was powerless over my addiction, that my life was unmanagble, and gave it to my higher power. I at that time learned that I was and am powerless over my husbands choices/smoking, and that my life was becoming unmanagble, and that I just needed to give it up. Low and behold I am applying that to every aspect of my life where I need apply it and my life is coming together naturally and smoothly...even when things are at there worst...I can be at my best.
Yep thats how the steps work and how we work them into our lives. I'll have to remember that one when I get powerless with my girlfriend and become unmanageable LOL
Congrats hope Alaska come out smoothly into the world :)
I was dealing with some issues and my sponsor told me to go back over my step 2 questions. I had the wrong paperwork out and accidentely went over step 1 answers. I had to call her and tell her that apparently I was not applying Step 1 to this situation. Once I realized this, it was sure alot easier to let go of the issue. Big congrats to you Anny and welcome Alaska
Welcome Alaska!! and congratulations Anny. Thanks for sharing that. One of the things I discovered in my 4th and 5th steps is that the exact nature of my control issues is really TRUST! I sometimes have trouble trusting that God is really in control and feel like I need to HELP Him out by insisting that things be done the way I'M SURE is according to His will. LOL Yes, I am powerless over other people, and I MUST learn to trust that the universe is unfolding exactly as it should without any "help" from me. Thanks again for sharing Anny.
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Thanks for sharing Anny, and yes, do share the good news of Alaska's arrival as well as her pics with us
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
THANK YOU! Reading what you wrote made me laugh, I needed that. I laughed because that is so true for me personally. It is like you know me. I am not alone in this by myself. I really am happy to be able to see that. God Bless.
