It's been a while since I've done a check-in. Then my account was deleted?!? So I wasn't even posting or reading here too much. (Thanks, V, for helping with that.)
Nonetheless, life goes on, as you all know.
My husband recently celebrated 21 years clean. I was able to pass along my 21-year medallion to him last night at our home group.
The home group is a step meeting I started some months back. It is small, but cozy, and very nice. I am very grateful for it. We are a tight little group with a warm welcome to newcomers and visitors.
The big thing in my life right now is that my husband and I have taken in our four little grandchildren who will live with us for the next year while their parents fulfill military obligations. The oldest is 4. The middle is 2.5. And then there are 15-month-old twins. Needless to say that our lives have changed tremendously.
To be brutally honest, some days are better than others. On a good day, I think of the situation as a gift, an opportunity to truly be of selfless service to others. On many days I'm tired and sad and I want my life back.
I no longer have the time to pursue my interests or to do the extra things to take care of myself, such as go to the gym. I'm not eating as healthily as I would like. I don't make as many meetings. My contact with sponsor and sponsees has decreased. I certainly don't spend as much time in nature as I need to feel peaceful and spiritually connected.
Most of the time I wish I could be a better person and do a better job with the little children. After all, it's not their fault and they just want to grow and be happy and receive love. They're fun and smart and cute and I totally love them. They're a lot of work.
I tell myself that it's only temporary. I should enjoy this time with them.
My husband travels a bit with his job and so I have periods alone with no help. I am also still working at two of my p/t jobs and trying to maintain my freelance business, which is dying a slow death from neglect.
Most days I feel bad that I'm not working enough. And yet I have no time when I'm not working either at a job or doing stuff for the kids.
Oops, here comes a little person.
Thanks for being here, everyone. (The 4-year-old is waving hello!)
God doesn't give us more then we can handle REMEMBER THAT Blithe HEH HEH . Sounds like a handful and a very special opportunity for all of you, the kids are really gonna get to know Grandma and Gramps.
when your not around the loss of your shared wisdom leaves a hole here just as when other senior members ( I dont mean that in any age related way LOL ) drop off regualr posting regime but I understand we all get a life and theres things to do.
We are fortunate to have people come and sometimes they go and do other things I really need to get more involved out there myself and will be soon.
We're all on a journey and who knows where it wil take us. Ramans on a huge journey you have a big responsibility in your hands all of us just trudging the road to happy destiny LOL I HOPE Love you Blithe thanks for checking in and CONGRATULATIONS to your hubby .
