Stop using Scott give it a chance give yourself a break.
Take in what your getting at the meetings in the mean time just sit and listen and go about your day think about what you hear. Is it something you really want? are you ready to stop using yet?
Go ahead an just be HONEST WITH YOURSELF.
Thats my suggestion no pressure you will stop when your ready to stop and things dont heal all at once I still feel bad after 2 years clean but heres my choice, i'd be dead right now if I hadn't have stopped so i'll take a little discomfort instead of that.
Hang in there and keep coming back we say that for a reason most of us need this real bad lots of people don't sincerely want it you really have to want to be clean .
intellect has nothing to do with it. just keep going to meetings and get some phone numbers from people, then when you feel like using call one of them and hopefully they'll talk you out of it. try and substitute other activities, make sure that your eating 3 or 4 times a day. Avoid stress, caffiene, people that piss you off. Get to bed early and sleep as much as you can. Buy time. It's get better the longer that your clean. You gotta want it brother.
I do want it so very much.I thank you for the advice I FEEL SO LOST
We all probally felt the same way when we first came in. The thing is dont get too. H. A. L. T. (Hungry) (Angry) (LONELY) (Tierd) and me as a former meth head my self we want it and we want it like yesterday. Its a one day at a time...one hour at a time sometimes one minute at a time program. We are NOT responsible for our addiction....we are responsible for our recovery!
if you really want to get clean you will just don't use at all if it is that hard go to a program and check in they will at least get you clean for a few days so that you can get on top of it yourself there is no shame in going in to a rehab i have done it many of the peeps in this group have done it if you really want to get clean you will
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some of us win some of us lose with god and this program i will be a winner
Hi scott,, raman an addict,,clean and serene saying hello and welcome. I was told "just keep bringing the body around(to meetings),,,the mind will follow" Thats where you need to be,, thats where I need to be,, Just For Today. # So that we will not die without having had a c ghance to recover. Hugs and all the best. in the NA Way !!!!
-- Edited by Raman at 06:44, 2008-10-08
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Scott, that feeling will fade when you put a few days of being clean time (one day at a time) behind you and start feeling the love from the people that you meet at the meetings. These folks need to become your new family. They are waiting for you. Make sure that you introduce yourself to at least 2 people per meeting. Go early and stay after. Ask someone to be your temporary sponsor and get their phone number. Make a goal to do 90 meetings in 90 days, even if you have to substitute AA meetings for lack of available NA meetings. The message is the same. "No matter what happens, don't pick up a drink or a drug". Bring your fear, stress, worries, anger ect... to the meetings and share it. A problem shared is a problem halved.
ya I slept alot and I feel a little better.Now I have to get the nerve up to throw my weed away and beer thats going to be the hardest thing they have been there for so long
you can do it. My weekly activities included drinking, smoking, smoking dope, snorting, pills...pretty much whatever I could get my hands on.
Give being clean a chance. Make a comittment to going 30 days, then reup for 60, 90... "one day at a time". I feel 100 times better clean and sober then I ever did drunk, stonned, and tripping.
I went, to a noon meeting got alot of numbers, and listend. It was great. You people are great. walking me through this crazy shit I think im going to make it
I went, to a noon meeting got alot of numbers, and listend. It was great. You people are great. walking me through this crazy shit I think im going to make it
Scott, you've only got to go through this getting clean once, and staying clean is a whole lot easier than getting clean. Once you get it, protect it by going to meetings daily. It was 3.5 years before I missed a meeting
Honey bear, you are a very sweet women.I Sure appreciate all your support and care .Im going to get a sponser at the noon meeting today.Im feeling better but the craving is so strong its worse than three days ago. I know its all part of the process and will pull through it with yalls help. thank you
Dear Scott, it's not the Meth or Heroine or Pills or Coke or Alcohol or Hash that killed/kills/killing us, IT'S US!!! WE are the problem
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Goopd catch Tahir , it's like saying a gun killed someone but someone had to pull the trigger of that gun.
My drug use was a response to how I feel, about myself and about the world around me, at first I thought I could control how I felt and avoid it even by using, then the drug use owned me but i let it and I am responsible to stop it.
But for most of us in order to stay stopped we have to deal with everything we were running from and heres the program to teach and show us just how to do that and many of us are getting it done One Day at a Time.
Stay on Track Scott stay clean you can get past it, we did and are take our strength into your day and know that you can do this.
BigV wrote:My drug use was a response to how I feel, about myself and about the world around me, at first I thought I could control how I felt and avoid it even by using, then the drug use owned me but i let it and I am responsible to stop it.
But for most of us in order to stay stopped we have to deal with everything we were running from and heres the program to teach and show us just how to do that and many of us are getting it done One Day at a Time.
Well put BigV, glad I read it, thanks
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Well while I was at a meeting my old dealer called my house not once not twice but three times.Im not looking for a pat on the back but I called him and told him to quite calling me that I was in recovery he said you will be back in a week and I will be right there when you do so good luck. that shit blows my mind I do have a say in this matter now and that feels good but I know im far from being out of the woods.I hope yall are not tired of me rambling on thanks for the help
Well while I was at a meeting my old dealer called my house not once not twice but three times.Im not looking for a pat on the back but I called him and told him to quite calling me that I was in recovery he said you will be back in a week and I will be right there when you do so good luck. that shit blows my mind I do have a say in this matter now and that feels good but I know im far from being out of the woods.I hope yall are not tired of me rambling on thanks for the help
Can you block his number? Think of him as negative energy.
Think of NA, the rooms us here as something you can fill up your tank of positive energy.
All of us against him...doesnt he get smaller and smaller?
We want you to live he wants you to (die ) and TURN ALL YOUR MONEY over to him. ALL YOU ARE is a paycheck. TO US your our brother. You have family in EVERY STATE, IN EVERY COUNTRY.....That jackass is in some hole in the wall .
For us there are no dues or fees your a member when you say you are.
We love you. We have hope in our hearts for you. I give you permission to put his sorry azz on ACCESS DENIED STATUS! Your life is worth so much more. xox Honey
Well while I was at a meeting my old dealer called my house not once not twice but three times.Im not looking for a pat on the back but I called him and told him to quite calling me that I was in recovery he said you will be back in a week and I will be right there when you do so good luck. that shit blows my mind I do have a say in this matter now and that feels good but I know im far from being out of the woods.I hope yall are not tired of me rambling on thanks for the help
that should give you some resolve to banish that MF'er from your life for good. The worst thing you can try and pull on one of us is that "I've got you over a barrel" crap.
Scott G, Congratulations I am Shannon and an addict. You know there is something that keeps coming to my mind when I see you sharing. I am going to suggest this my sponsor told me to do it when I get a crazy desire and that is when I feel like using to go and journal about the desire and how it is making me think and think of all the stupid crap I did when I was getting high and then think of some of the positive things that I saw. Like one was I heard the birds chirping in the morning got up early and looked outside and saw how sunny and pretty the outside looked cause I was always running to the dope man all night long. When You get that desire to use get to a meeting if you can. Your going to have to chase your recovery like you did the dope.. If I didn't have gas to a meeting I found a way to a meeting just like when I was doping out I found way's to the dope mans place. Chase this thing it is so nice not to have chaos all over the damn place now. I have 5 months clean as of tomorrow woo hooey!!!!!!!!
Good share, Shannon, thank you. Congrats on the Big 5 Miracles-filled Months Clean, Way To Go!
NA Hugs.
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SCOTT Hope all is well with you...I went backto my OLD STATE and now i8t feels great to be back in SLOw oHIO! I hateNJ......went tosee THE JETS that was the best along with my family and kids but the traffic and attiudes I am so glad to live elsewards if thats a word...Scott I hope your hanging in there kid!
Honey bear, you are a very sweet women.I Sure appreciate all your support and care .Im going to get a sponser at the noon meeting today.Im feeling better but the craving is so strong its worse than three days ago. I know its all part of the process and will pull through it with yalls help. thank you
