hi guys i have a problem i have talked to vini and my sponsor about this while working on a car i broke 2 metacarpals in my left hand i already suffer from chronic pain and am on suboxone to help with it now i have to have a surgery on my hand that the Dr has told me will be quite painful and that i will have to go on narcotics for the pain he is well aware of my problems and my fears of relapse opiates are my drug of choice i have a big worry that i will lose my clean time over this and it just kills me to even think about this shit i have already been put on fentanyl patches and after talking to vini if i use them as prescribed i should be OK i still harbour some worry about this if anyone has any input i would gratefully appreciate it thanks for the listen rocky
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some of us win some of us lose with god and this program i will be a winner
I just had surgery and was given coedine....shamefully, I took a couple extra once or twice. It was prescribed, I did ask my husband to keep it in his pocket so he could give it to me "as prescribed", and I considered it slips. Yet I absolutely have no desire to do so again - I'm not hunting down docs to prescribe me more or find a scrip writer, black market, etc.
All I can share is my personal opinion....having a clean date, in my own mind, of only a few days does not shame me anymore in the face of someone who has years of clean time....if I'm behaving in a healthy manner and not pissed off or feel like I'm stupid, etc. I had a big slip (close to being a relapse) after 15 flat years of clean time, and my sponsor said she was "disappointed"....I thought about that for a few days and nearly fired her. A woman at an aa meeting came in after losing over 20 years of sobriety, and for whatever reason, the next night they say she committed suicide. That's why I won't beat myself up, I'm just too healthy now from the time clean I had....I won't relapse over a slip!!!! Put THAT in your pipe!!!
My sister od'd on heroin....I WISH she'd have stayed on her methadone. I have great passion for those with little clean time or those who slip...slip a lot, but keep coming back. My sister cannot come back. Please GO EASY ON YOURSELF. We need you. Our purpose is to carry "the good news" to the addict who still suffers.
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I think people are full of guile.....I enjoy that.
Opiates were not my drug .... But i had a dentist and needed to get a root canal and he perscribed me them i have been clean a year and do not consider it a relapse ...I agree with big V when it is perscribed and taken only as perscribed it would not be a relapse i had a baby and had fentanyla in my epideral for an emergency c section and i did not consider that a relapse....So take your own judgment but do not allow that monster in your head telling you that can handle it again that was my fear with putting anything in my system...I was afraid of what my brain was telling me " oh look you can follow a perscription so you are cured" BS and that is what i had to be aware of so i hope you do to...Good luck and god bless
You know that game Rocky so dont set yourself expect the best out of the recovery you have going and do some reading on this the book talks about this situation one thing I remember it say is " This too shall pass ".
I abused pain meds that took me all the way to full relapse yeah i was going through some heavy emotional issues at the time so it was BAD TIMING for me to be ingesting narcotics , after a few times of taking more then prescribed I knew i was in relapse . This last episode with my back I took no narcotics I just dealt with it did a lot of praying and abused ibuprophen LOL I just know that only under extreme conditions I can't take narcotics it changes my thinking drastically I actually feel weak in this area that it doesnt take much to set off my addiction and set off the cycle of compulsion and obsession but at least now i know better.
I want you to talk with Rick the friend I told you about who will be having the skin graffs he's also a counselor and in recovery but i want to see how he's handling things first.
I am really praying for you man hate to see this take a bad turn but its up to you , great posts gals.
This is what I did I have a dislocated elbow it happened on Aug.25th,2008 ok. I was in a public place ok. I first tried getting a hold of my sponsor no luck with that. I was on the ambulance they offered me either Morphine, or laughing gas I took the laughing gas for the pain. I inhaled on that thing like it was a pipe the medic took it away from me for a moment and told me to slow down which I did. Then in the ER I couldn't get a hold of my sponsor at all that morning. Told doc I was an addict. he prescribed me vicodin. Later that day got a hold of my sponsor she suggested this try tylenol extra strength, I took that it didn't help. She then said try Aleve that didn't help me at all for real. Then I had to use my pain pills so this is how I did it. I was extremely careful. I took 1 in the AM and would let it work and tried to bear with as much pain as I could and sometime's I didn't need it for 12 hours. which was good. I upped my meetings, I called more people in recovery, but as the day's went on I was isolating and my sponsor would come and pick me up for a meeting or two. I would go. but even though I was isolating I never used more than I needed to. I always talked to my sponsor during the whole time and I would call her and let her know when I was taking the meds. I am starting pt this week for my elbow and doc has taken me off pain meds, but I still have a lot of pain and I know once they start to work my elbow I will be in a lot more pain cause I am in pain just trying to sleep at night.
