Hi my name is Dave m and I am an addict. I just wanted to claim my seat. I am newly coming back to the halls and now really begining to understand the incidousness of our disease. I had previously had over a year under my belt and my thinking was yes I am cured. I thought I could use alcohol, I forgot that alcohol is a drug. It is also a very powerful one. 11 days ago I wreck my car and was sent to jail. I was in a total state of depression. I had forgotten that I could find a new way of life enjoying it without the use of drugs. The wreck was a slap in the face, but in a good way. It has brought me back to reality. I had also used other drugs while I was out, substituting one for another. You name it I would use it. I forgot I was an addict and have the trifold disease that effects the mind body and sprit. i have suffered in all these asspects. There something I have today that I didn't have for awhile and that is hope. Thanks I am an addict my name is David. **HUGS**
Welcome back Dave glad your alive to join us and now one was hurt. Thsi could have been one of those storys with a bad ending but you've been given another chance and sometimes getting a good scare or wakeup call is all it takes, take full advantage of this time given to you, its a gift.
Hi Dave, welcome back. You have reminded me of a passage in Chapter 7 "Recovery and Relapse." It says, "...a relapse may be the jarring experience that brings about a more rigorous application of the program." Pg 78 says, "Relapse can be the destructive force that kills us or leads us to the realization of who and what we really are." I will share with you a hope shot that I have shared with many others: Through everything you have gone through or are going through, you are being uniquely equipped to help some other addict who is yet to come, who may not be able to identify with anyone else's experience but yours. So, Dave, be encouraged, you are not alone, and you are gaining valuable experience to help others. Good Luck and Big NA Hugs!!
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Hi my name is Dave m and I am an addict. I just wanted to claim my seat. I am newly coming back to the halls and now really begining to understand the incidousness of our disease. I had previously had over a year under my belt and my thinking was yes I am cured. I thought I could use alcohol, I forgot that alcohol is a drug. It is also a very powerful one. 11 days ago I wreck my car and was sent to jail. I was in a total state of depression. I had forgotten that I could find a new way of life enjoying it without the use of drugs. The wreck was a slap in the face, but in a good way. It has brought me back to reality. I had also used other drugs while I was out, substituting one for another. You name it I would use it. I forgot I was an addict and have the trifold disease that effects the mind body and sprit. i have suffered in all these asspects. There something I have today that I didn't have for awhile and that is hope. Thanks I am an addict my name is David. **HUGS**
You earned your seat....Trying coming back after having 8 EIGHT YEARS IN THE PROGRAM!~ That was the BIGGEST PEICE OF HUMBLE PIE I HAD TO EAT.
When you just come and dont take suggestions and make the meetings you want to make and dont come early or stay late or get numbers blah blah blah you get the picture eventually your disease starts or my disease started talking to me......
Today I work the steps I have a sponsor, I am involved in chairing meetings, I am a GSR of my homegroup ETC ETC ETC I have more true friends than I ever did when I was out there and that is the truth and that black hole in my soul is poof gone..
