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kitizzy


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Going with the poetry theme from the last post. I thought that I would share a poem someone gave to me:

There is a monster who lives in my head.
He talks to me softly, he wants me dead.
He tells me this time, I'll stay in control.
He tells me not to let anyone know.
He convinces me that nobody cares,
He whispers my pain is too much to bear.
He tells me how wonderful I will feel.
He tells me he loves me and it is real.
He tells me not to call anyone
My heart starts racing,
He tells me it will be fun.
He tells me not to think of past times.
He promises I can do it,
just once this time.
Who is the monster that calls me by name?

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rocky


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great poem kath i got it right away imagine that lol it is always cool to see things like this for me it helps me realize that there is still beauty in some of us junkies i wish i could get to my beauty a little quicker this time out i seem to have a dark cloud over me that i cant get out from under and this poem really helped me to see the light today thank you bret


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dan h


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Here's a favorite:

My life more than half spent, I look back with regret.
All the lessons I've learned I seem to forget.

All the lives that I've touched seem no better for it;
All the ones who I've loved, Well, now who would know it.

And those who loved me- I just pushed away,
Not knowing the price that one day I'd pay.

Yes, I went my OWN way, I sought my own pleasure,
I indulged each desire beyond any measure.

I witheld not one thing my hands could provide...
Yet still all I felt was empty inside.

Oh, the things I would change if I could go back,
Start my life over, stay on the right track.

And how WISE I'd be now if I'd understood then,
that lifes saddest four words are....
                               ...WHAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN.

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mrwinkie


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this looks like fun, can i try ?



    there was a young dumb-ass named tony

    who loved to ride the white pony

   he thought he was cool with the ultimate stony

  till the pony took its mount on tonybiggrin



  hehe.. i know your stuff is better , but i couldnt resist. sue me im a sick man.

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kitizzy


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dan h wrote:

Here's a favorite:

My life more than half spent, I look back with regret.
All the lessons I've learned I seem to forget.

All the lives that I've touched seem no better for it;
All the ones who I've loved, Well, now who would know it.

And those who loved me- I just pushed away,
Not knowing the price that one day I'd pay.

Yes, I went my OWN way, I sought my own pleasure,
I indulged each desire beyond any measure.

I witheld not one thing my hands could provide...
Yet still all I felt was empty inside.

Oh, the things I would change if I could go back,
Start my life over, stay on the right track.

And how WISE I'd be now if I'd understood then,
that lifes saddest four words are....
                               ...WHAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN.



Thanks Dan,

I really like that one...

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kitizzy


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rocky wrote:

great poem kath i got it right away imagine that lol it is always cool to see things like this for me it helps me realize that there is still beauty in some of us junkies i wish i could get to my beauty a little quicker this time out i seem to have a dark cloud over me that i cant get out from under and this poem really helped me to see the light today thank you bret



That is what we are here for right? What you cannot do alone, WE can do together....Take care Bret.



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kitizzy


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mrwinkie wrote:

this looks like fun, can i try ?



    there was a young dumb-ass named tony

    who loved to ride the white pony

   he thought he was cool with the ultimate stony

  till the pony took its mount on tonybiggrin



  hehe.. i know your stuff is better , but i couldnt resist. sue me im a sick man.


Anthony, sick man or not, thanks again for the smile!!



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cally


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kitizzy wrote:

Going with the poetry theme from the last post. I thought that I would share a poem someone gave to me:

There is a monster who lives in my head.
He talks to me softly, he wants me dead.
He tells me this time, I'll stay in control.
He tells me not to let anyone know.
He convinces me that nobody cares,
He whispers my pain is too much to bear.
He tells me how wonderful I will feel.
He tells me he loves me and it is real.
He tells me not to call anyone
My heart starts racing,
He tells me it will be fun.
He tells me not to think of past times.
He promises I can do it,
just once this time.
Who is the monster that calls me by name?

RELAPSE
He's waiting to start the game.


thanks 4 this peoming its great and it as really helped me today it as made me remember that i cant belive the lie in my head. i have been thinking all day that i can control it i now no i cant thanks 2 yr lovely peom.








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mrwinkie


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a bit more serious ,


           Reciting a small portion of the scriptures,
                 But putting it diligently into practice;
                 Letting go of passion, aggression, and confusion:
                 Revering the truth with a clear mind;
                 And not clinging to anything, here or hereafter;
                 Brings the harvest of the holy life.
      
                                     -    Dhammapada
                                             Translated by Balangoda Ananda Maitreya
                                             Found in Entering the Stream, 1993, p. 69
                                             Edited by Samuel Bercholz and Sherab Chodzin Kohn

    HAVE A GREAT DAY . sun.gif



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  ONE MORE FOR GOOD MEASURE .

   

This is what should be done
By one who is skilled in goodness,
And who knows the path of peace:
Let them be able and upright,
Straightforward and gentle in speech.
Humble and not conceited,
Contented and easily satisfied.
Unburdened with duties and frugal in their ways.
Peaceful and calm, and wise and skillful,
Not proud and demanding in nature.
Let them not do the slightest thing
That the wise would later reprove.

         -   The Buddha's Words on Kindness (Metta Sutta)

  

   This is how easy it can all be , What a burden on some days to be an addict, A constant fight within myself. Let go , Let GOD . a thousand times a day. Will the burden ever be slacked ?



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dan h


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Thanks for that, Anthony. What I found burdensome in early recovery, today I find pleasureable. When I first began trying to practice the principles of the steps, it was hard. It didn't come easy to me, nor does it to any addict, I think. "Though the principles of the twelve steps may seem strange to us at first, the most important thing about them is that they work." (What is the NA program?) But with practice, it became easier, and as it got easier, it became pleasureable. What a man becomes good at, he begins to enjoy. As my recovery progresses, I get better at "practicing" the principles, so that at some point, they become second nature, and I can sometimes apply principles automatically, thus beginning to "live" the program. The spiritual life as outlined in your words from Buddha is a wonderful way to live, even if I don't do it perfectly. When it all falls in place, even for a short time, life is sweet, and the hereafter becomes something I look forward to, not fear or dread. Thanks, again, for uplifting me.

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mrwinkie


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your quite welcome, thank you for the encouragement. It is not easy recovering. It is a task that requires exhausting diligence . Without those that have made it before me , I am lost .

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