Tommorrow Sept. 5th is Allens bday there is not a day that goes by that I don't think of him. I should have handled things different; although my therapist says I did what I had to do to get my point across and to stand up for what I want. I keep my self busy with my new job and my new friends life is going okay I am loving being back at work I am finnally independent and am planning to take a cruise in the spring. I am looking forward to that. There are so many good things in my life right now.. It is hard to complain but the fact that I miss allen is reall no matter how I try yo replace him or with what he still is in my thoughts even if he seperated me from my other friends my good friends don't let that stand inthe way of our friendship. That Iam grateful for my life for the summer was Allen and nothing else. Now I feel like I am learning how to walk again. Having the monewy to spoil myself feels great and I have never had a real vacation so I am really excited about my new found freedom I don't feel stuckfor the first time in a long time I can get what Iwant as well as need without asking anyone else. That in itself is a great feeling so till later.................
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Today at the doctors office trying to sit still and not being able to but walking the halls waiting for my appointment it dawned on me we are missing a great source of alternative energy. All these detox places should have treadmills wired to generators so us opiate addicts in withdrawals can walk away our anxiety and restlessness the treadmill/generator and provide power to the detox unit. Green Detox. What do you think?
Hopelessness, despair, even terror....to get out of those, I like to find a usefulness for myself. I'd be on that freakin treadmill every day. I love finding broader definitions for myself. there may be claw marks on what I let go of, but my hand IS open for what the future holds.
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I think people are full of guile.....I enjoy that.
Rayne, thank you for sharing, good to hear from you again, been sometime since I logged in here, NA Hugs to you, enjoy the material blessings of your Higher Power
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
