God whats an addict ?? me as an example means Im also afraid to succeed. "Something in our destructive personalities cries for failure" says the Text. I can thats true in my case even now at times. I get really tense and scared when Im sounding too good in my talk, when I get lot of applause in my music ,, and when i beging to really feel good about myself. God knows why thats so ..low self esteem ? Brought forward guilt ? Last nite,, tonite,, the other nite I get applasue for my music,,i suceed in getting my point accross in a non emotional manner and my writing and talking is sounding good,,, but I feel fear about this good phase ending !! Does the fear indicate that another phase in my rexcovery,,,much better than I ever knew is round the corner ?? am i supposed to let go of all that I know and be completely open to new things in my life ?? can anyone identify please ?? Share on then,,,,,
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
DOING THINGS THAT BRING SUCCESS MEANS WORK and i'm a lazy addict LOL
I love being told I did something good but you know I try not to count on what others think and I hate when they criticize me but I try to take it as constructive, the thing is my face flusters if its done face to face in other words I blush and show my emotions and that bugs the heck out of me.
Getting threw each opportunity to succeed or to fail is the whole idea if we fail we just dont reach for a fix because we're down and if we succeed again we dont celebrate by using and we end up growing in recovery both ways.
Thanks for bringing up the topic, Raman. You know, when I think of how success and failure are defined, the answer is that I'm measuring myself against some standard that is either in my head or set by someone else - a certain job level, salary, recognition, etc.
Frankly, I'm not interested in measuring my life and my worth against a standard. It is like comparing my insides to someone else's outsides. It just doesn't work.
I honestly don't think any of it matters. In fact, I've stopped believing in success and failure. I try to stay away from all of those black and white opposites: good vs bad, right vs wrong, success vs failure. Life is just not that clear cut.
Sometimes I create difficult situations for myself or have a warped perspective. This is part of my experience, my path through life. The first step is awareness, the second is acceptance, and the third involves step work.
Hello Everyone, I'm just a newcomer here but would like to contribute what I have learned, if I may. Living a life guided by a Higher Power, I am learning that I can trust him/her/it (I'll just say Him for convenience from now on) to have my best interest in mind at all times. If He is truly all powerful and only wants the best for me, then anything that is happening in my life is happening with His permission, and if with His permission, then for my benefit, whether I can see it or not. I can't see what the future holds and that flat tire I was so upset about may have delayed me just long enough to prevent me from being involved in an accident. When I rest in His care things no longer happen TO me, they happen FOR me. I believe that most of my blessings and especially my greatest blessings, I never even see, they're invisible. When I can begin to accept this way of life, I am reminded that every time I find myself complaining, I'm really saying, "God, you're making a mistake. This isn't supposed to be happening to ME!" Then I remember those invisible blessings and know that the universe is unfolding exactly as it should, and I thank Him for whatever is going on and try to learn from it. To me, acceptance involves a conscious act of the will, otherwise I'm just resigned to or tolerating a situation or person, not accepting them. When I can accept that God uses every circumstance, even failures, to teach me and help me to grow, I realize that I have experienced many SUCCESSFUL failures and have made many CORRECT mistakes in my life. Every one taught me something that no perceived success could have. Anyway, just a little different perspective. Thanks for the topic and thanks for letting me share. dan h
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"With a sweet tongue of kindness, you can drag an elephant by a hair." ~Persian Proverb
Hello Everyone, I'm just a newcomer here but would like to contribute what I have learned, if I may. Living a life guided by a Higher Power, I am learning that I can trust him/her/it (I'll just say Him for convenience from now on) to have my best interest in mind at all times. If He is truly all powerful and only wants the best for me, then anything that is happening in my life is happening with His permission, and if with His permission, then for my benefit, whether I can see it or not. I can't see what the future holds and that flat tire I was so upset about may have delayed me just long enough to prevent me from being involved in an accident. When I rest in His care things no longer happen TO me, they happen FOR me. I believe that most of my blessings and especially my greatest blessings, I never even see, they're invisible. When I can begin to accept this way of life, I am reminded that every time I find myself complaining, I'm really saying, "God, you're making a mistake. This isn't supposed to be happening to ME!" Then I remember those invisible blessings and know that the universe is unfolding exactly as it should, and I thank Him for whatever is going on and try to learn from it. To me, acceptance involves a conscious act of the will, otherwise I'm just resigned to or tolerating a situation or person, not accepting them. When I can accept that God uses every circumstance, even failures, to teach me and help me to grow, I realize that I have experienced many SUCCESSFUL failures and have made many CORRECT mistakes in my life. Every one taught me something that no perceived success could have. Anyway, just a little different perspective. Thanks for the topic and thanks for letting me share. dan h
That is exactly how I have see things, I do need to remind myself that it's not me running this show and am not the director of my future just an actor to do my part.
Thanks Dan I love it when someone else puts into words what I feel and think but have a hard time putting words to, excellent share man.
Hello all. I too am a newbie....4 years no drugs but just one year working the steps. I have to reply to this because a similar situation has recently come up for this addict. I help people for a living. I recently was approached with an opportunity to interview for a position that is considered a promotion in my field. The turmoil that followed was terrible. I of course brought on these mixed feelings myself along with a huge dose of "stinkin thinkin". See, I am comfortable and confident with what I am doing now and frankly scared to death to yet again, start something new. Will I be good enough? Will I fail? Will my community accept me in this position? (after all the wrongs I've done) ARGH!!! The answer came to me one day while doing my daily reading....It's HIS will... so let it go...stick to the books...stay humble...and get off your ass and just do it. I say "the answer is in the prayers and the sweat you're willing to contribute".
Yeah Peace,, all the beat of recovery luck to you. You deserve the best. And i read lately that stress dosent happen only with neagtives,,, it also happens when I fall in love again when i move to a better house/locality when I get a promotiom?better job etc.etc.etc.. and in my cae also when I begin to do better than before !!
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
and a latest stress point is tghe prospect of ging abroad to do my masters. I had dreams to that effect,,but now as that dreams about to come true im stressing out in anxiety. Thank God I have Steps to deal with the feelings !!
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Right on Blithe, well put, I couldn't agree with you more...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Now that we are reflecting on success and failure here, I guess I can share this...
The other day at our ASC Meeting, there was a general feeling among a few GSRs/members that they were not able to clearly discuss certain agenda issues due to the minutes of the previous ASC not being issued yet, and while addressing this issue, I expressed that we have failed to make the minutes available in time... one of the members quickly snapped "do you have to use such big words like FAILURE and all?"
That's when it hit me that not all perceive 'success' and 'failure' as I might perceive them... some do consider 'failure' differently and more seriously...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
and show my emotions and that bugs the heck out of me.
