i'm a recovering meth addict for almost 3 years until i find out my wife is cheating on me while i'm at work, now we're going through a divorce and she left with almost everything that mattered to me ... my life fell apart and now for like the past 2 weeks i've been using and now i lost my job and in debt with only unemployment to rely on ... what do i have to do to get myself back on track? please respond ... or email me at brianpzeeb@yahoo.com
Are you able to get to an NA meeting in your area? If so, the first step would be to show up there and ask for help. Second, ask for phone numbers. Third, call a number on that list when you get home from the meeting and make plans to go to another meeting.
Every time you want to use, DON'T. Pick up the phone and call someone instead. Get to as many meetings as you can and ask for help at every meeting.
You do not have to continue using. Pick up the phone *before* you pick up the drug.
DO as Blithe suggests and get to some live meetings and stop using those are your first responsbility's to save your own butt.
Take a hard look at what this did to you inside as far as feelings go, that is where you really need to apply this program I relapsed over losing a relationship also and I had to find where I fell short not using this program to get me threw that difficult time and you can do the same.
We have no power over people places things and some situations we do have power over what we do with our lives, this program and a higher power give that choice back to us.
SO just get back to the program this was a good first step asking for help time to do the footwork Brian.
My wife of 25 years boiled up her feelings for me into two words..."We're Done"
The pain of the situation jump started all my bad feelings, and I spiraled towards oblivion. Then a few things started to happen, which led me to believe there IS a higher power who mcan restore me to sanity.
I was ready to admit that I was powerless over drugs, and they had made my life unmanageable. I surrendered, no amount of hope was going to change my past!
Get up, get out of your room, go to meetings, read the basic text, get a sponsor...don't stay at home all jammed up inside of your head. An addict alone is in bad company......
an early sponsor once said,, hook your recovery to the highest star and let nothing come in between,,, I've been in a few late hits in recovery and only the 12 Step Solution worked.. bless u,,stay blessed and all the best of NA LUCK to you...
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
hi brian, dude your post brought back some wicked memories for me. flashback to 1992. my wife was having an affair and killing me with it. she was enjoying the fact that i was heartbroken and in complete misery. .i was several years clean and thought i really had myself and my relationship together .i sought solice in the only thing i knew. i was living in hawaii and there was a newer type drug on the streets , it was called batu, or ice. or crystal. now we call it meth. wicked stuff. i got off the meth but replaced it with a plethora of other drugs.it took me 15 years to decide id had enough. so im back and im trying hard . the good news here is it hasent taken you 15 more years on the street to realize your hurting and reaching out for help. you need to follow the advice from the other folks in here, they have alot of clean time and are more than willing to freely lay it on you. get to those meetings they are a conerstone to recovery. read the literature. find a sponser. look for recovery as hard as you looked for drugs. put everything you have into it. treat it as if your life depends on it. because in a very real way , it does. best of luck to you brother. keep coming back . anthonyg
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Well Brian I guess that I'm one of the lucky ones. I got clean and sober during a divorce/infidelity... that was 19 years ago. What I came out of that with was, that she had nothing to do with the problem, which Was Me. I also realized that I felt the same about her as I did when ending other relationships to completely different people, why? Because, again, it wasn't about her, it was my addiction to the dysfunctional relationship . Getting away from her to focus on myself was the best thing that ever happened to me (read blessing). Most relationships will end, some need to be terminated by us. Abandonment issues weigh on us until we figure it out that we need to rely on ourself and our higher power emotionally. One day at time applies to relationships also. Be grateful for the ones that you have and don't expect them to be there tomorrow. Time to move on, get clean again and get a (new) life. Best advise, get to a meeting everyday for the next year or two and stay busy.
