A very big hug and congrats Vin,, buddy youve been a real rock in my recovery,, keep it up Im very greatful to you for your personal friendship and the gerat job you rea doing at this site too. And as always,, Im wishing and hoping luck to and inciting the Gods to lead you to your own Mckennas lode,,May you live happily ever after !! Ha,ha,ha,, and yes all the best in your ongoing recovery too.
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
Welcome yall to BigVs birthday Celebrations here at MIP !!! Serenity Prayer,,Steps and Traditions Now ,,,Vin will share his experience strength and hope with us !!!
Then we will have him cut his cake and sing the birthday song.
Happy birthday to you,, happy birthday to you happy birthday dear Vin,,, Happy 2nd birthday to you !!! Big Bday Hugs,,,
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
I'm a person who wants what he wants and he wants it when he wants it LOL
The way God, Higher power works in my life is to SLOW ME DOWN I have had to WAIT with great PATIENCE and VIGILANCE, I've had to be tolerant and most of all ACCEPTING .
Why did I want what I wanted the way and when I wanted it?
I want control , the very same control I don't have. I want everything the easy way , just hand it to me make it easy that way I dont have to put out any effort.
I want recognition I want to be accepted for all my flaws but don't expect it back.
It's all about ME ME ME the deprived little boy who's going to throw a huge tantrum and make a mountian out of a mole hill
Thats me folks, what a mess , is that sad enough to make me a real good addict? YEAH that works LOL and thats who and what i'm dealing with and thats why I needed NA and to recognize a higher power in my life who could change me into something better.
Because I can't stay clean and sober being that person any longer things HAD TO CHANGE, and slowly they are slowly I am seeing some light of day.
I realized awhile back and it was because someone told me that this life I have is not mine any longer, I gave up on my life a long time ago thats how hopeless I got and God took over where I couldn't or wouldn't and when he/it did that gave me hope and I was able to do something about myself, I had an intervention with myself so to speak and God was the intervener LOL.
Sick and tired of going to prison sick and tired of hurting myself and others and sick very very sick physically, spiritually and mentally, I totally destroyed myself. I was brought back from the dead lands and swept off into life and living.
I Love life now I respect it and try to nourish this life and with great fear and thats why I still need my higher power to walk along side with and why I depend on that power, greater then me and greater then my addiction.
So yes I am very greatful this day and today i am very hopeful that others can have what I have , I KNOW they can when the timing is right.
I put special thanks right here to this board and all the members who have really really helped me hang in there, some have come and gone some have been here a long long time helping and I THANK YOU ALL from the bottom of my selfish self centered heart and my soul thanks you too, that being the good in me you've helped save me from and early death .
The invitation here is open for everyone who comes across this site there is a power here GREATER then your addiction here, its love, hope, experience and strength that you will find, my hope is all will open there hearts minds and take what is offered.
..way to go vin..a great thing , wish i could be there in person to help you celebrate, the world has been a better place for me with a clean vin.youve given alot away to me .ill need to return the favor someday..thanks for being here and happy happy birthday. anthonyg
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" If you have built castles in the air , your work need not be lost ; that is where they should be . Now put the foundations under them . "
AH Schuks everyone thanks so much made me teary eyed LOL
I was just thinking today I dont feel any different but you know what i may not feel it but I am a different person today then I was 2 years ago, just a few things have changed i've grown up a little, I understand things more in depth I think I even try harder now in life because I never want to be as miserable as I was the last time I got clean and I never want to repeat that relapse again, not for anything.
So I am just so greatful to be clean, TODAY and to have stayed clean a few yesterdays.
CONGRATS ON THE BIG 2 MIRACLES BIGV, WAY TO GO BRO, GLAD WE HAVE YOU HERE AT MIP WITH US, and thanks for sharing how you did it
((((((((((((((((((((Big NA Hugs to BigV)))))))))))))))))))
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Thanks Tahir thanks again Family, what a journey I am so gratful to have been chosen and to have been able to accept with open arms this gift of recovery.
There is a plan for us all unless we dont take the opportunity up, if you choose to take it I promiss that it wont be easy it wont be without some work and it wont be not worth doing because what we get back in return is peace, peace of mind spirit and heart, we get to help out others and feel worth while, we get to have new long lasting relationships and friends we get to feel real love though fleeting for me I have experienced this . K now i'm rambling on LOL
Way to f'in go! You should be proud of your accomplishment, if you are like me you probably never thought that (ANY AMOUNT OF TIME MUCH LESS 2 years )clean was possible. It's wonderful learning how to deal with life on life's terms, and helping others learn a new way of life. CONGRATULATIONS
PS I'm 45 days from that mark, going to meetings and living the steps....
I have had to WAIT with great PATIENCE and VIGILANCE, I've had to be tolerant and most of all ACCEPTING .
