It's been a while, everything has been goin pretty smooth, just for some reason right now i got that really bad craving that you don't know what to do with it.. just got back from San Diego to visit a friend in recovery down there.. the meetings there were awesome.. hope you guys have been good
Well i was on my way to a meeting yesterday and the car broke down.. second time i tried to go to that particular meeting and the first time i tried to go my friends car broke down on the way too.. what gives god? i'm going to hit up a couple meetings tomorrow though, i'm pretty excited to start going again it's been a while
nope, i'm still in treatment in oregon, i just went down to SD to visit a friend in recovery for 3 days, they trust me more so they let me do that, but now im back in the program
yeah dude, i didn't use, there were so many times when i felt like it down there and could have, but i'm on a new level of acceptance and wanting/needing to be clean and sober, im going to stay in oregon for a while and go to school even after im outta the program i think.. oregon is a nice place, i like it a lot more now that its summer
Good stuff Scott proud you went back proud your sticking proud your getting it,,, what a blessin.
All sorts of levels to this I am still going threw stuff all the time m I just try to stay focused each day on the goal, to stay clean and live a better life then ever before, lots of acceptance issues in life every day sometimes all day, situations by situation never ends!
I am new to this forum (and the live meetngs as well) but am working on my 90 n 90. I have a sponsor and she is the greatest.
The problem today is that I am unable to go to a meeting. My father is disabled and I cant leave him unattended. HOmehealth isnt available today. I am having this incredibably ridiculous thought that my so called using people may actually me 'worried' about me because i havent been around in 67 days today. I know this is totally insane and I know that my mind is playing tricks on me. I am trying to hang onto the thought that my brain nows if "I can just get her to engage in a conversation with one of them, she'll faulter." My mind is healing now and the demon doesnt like healthy. So it is working me trying to break me down.
I have called my sponsor--so I am feeling better=---but wanted to vent more.
thats a toughy.
