Hi, I am new here, but I've been researching the internet on and off for years before this post today. I am about to celebrate 4 years of sobriety from an unintentional although vicious addiction to prescription meds. I live in a smaller city and have not been able to find any NA meetings that can even remotely relate to the issues that I have/am experiencing. I know in the grand scheme of things, it's all related, but what I really feel like I need right now is a relationship with people who truly understand my specific feelings.
Can you all direct me to the right place... or is it possible that I am there?
I really don't think it matters what your drug of choise was. Addiction is addiction.
There are alot of people in the meeting that I go to, that when it comes to their drug of choise, I can't relate, but what I can relate to is how they felt. The isolation, low self-worth lack of caring about myself and other people.
Reach out and you'll be surprised just how much you have in common with the people in the rooms of NA.
My God Samantha,,, Among the various drugs i used then,,Ive used many kinds of tabs,, uppers and downers. Sometimes I wonder if theres any non addictive drugs we can take to help cope with pain from relationships. I dont know if anyone wil relate when i say i feel very hurt when im accused of things that i didnt do,,,the accuser is most probably flinging accusations in order to cover up their own faults. Im having a hard time in relations. Seems like when people do like i expect them to,,im ok with them. In fcat most of my expectations are justified and honourable,,, the probl;em is that sometimes I believe people will behave "correctly" and when they dont I go thru a lot of pain and turmoil. I had a crazy Sunday afternoon,,, and now this days been crazy in regard to one particular relationship. Sometimes I wonder how "normal" people actually cope .
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
hi sam , im anthony and im an addict..i know your apprehension about being in the right place well . several of us do . if you read the posts you can find many stories of people that feel they never did this kind of drug or that kind, some people cant relate to being homeless some cant relate to being a homeowner. the addiction to scripts is really hard on some because for the most part many fellow script users never broke a law.so they want to feel they arent as bad as say.the " street " user..its been my experiance that those very conversations we have with ourselves in our heads IS OUR ADDICTION itself.we may be weak but our addiction works out..its in shape.while we go to meetings our addiction is in training.its very strong.one of our addictions strongest weapons is telling us we are unique.that we are different and that we dont belong here. its normal , dont beat yourself up over it.as a team ,a family we are all together stronger.the only requirement for membership here is a desire to quit using.im in your corner.we all are..keep coming back.
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Welcome Sam, I was hooked on to prescription pills for more than a decade myself...
I do have the obsession to get hold of these meds and the compulsion to use them no matter what, that NA defines as two basic attributes of any addict
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Thanks to everyone for their thoughts and input. The truth is that for the first 3 years, I did go to meetings (any kind) very regularly. However, this past year, I am just not getting as much out of the AA meetings and while I like the NA meetings, and yes, "a drug is a drug" and "an addiction is an addiction", I'd still like to find people who really are more my peers.
I hear the people from my rehab and meetings telling me that this is merely the disease playing with my brain, trying to isolate me from meetings, etc.... and I get that.... but I also think that my desire for a different kind of meeting in genuine and I am frustrated that I can't find it.
I'll keep looking and I will keep hanging out here. Thanks again to you all!
Hi Samantha, My name is Kim and I am an addict of prex meds as well. I have been clean for 9 days. You have come to the right place for support when you can not find NA meetings.
Tonight is my third meeting and I can not wait! Congrats on 4 years....
