A dialogue with myself= Raman,, have you lately stopped and asked yourself why you try and convince those who wont believe you ? why do you bargain for love with those who cant or wont love you ? why is it you will go out of the way to try and please those who can never be pleased ? why is it when everythings going well youll suddely pick on something that isnt and then go beserk on that ? well,,, if yu dont know the answers yet its ok,, but are you willing to Meditate and experience the Miracle of listening ?????
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
Thanks for sharing that, Raman. Looks like you have a good friend in yourself. Relationships are a challenge. I'm getting better with them, though. One of my greatest struggles is that I focus on that one little thing that isn't the way I want it. Everything else in my life is great, but that one little things makes me nuts. I'm crazy to waste my time and energy like that, but I do it anyway. Ugh. Yes. Being still and quiet is the solution.
I have a hard time getting clarity in my mind its all jumbled up I am pretty much like a babysitter to myself and I have to be the adult of the child that is inside. But when the adult is lost I go to my higher power for help, guidance and assurance.
I have asked myself the same questions some i got answers to and some I have to simply ( not so simple ) change and stop doing, it work at times and others its simple , just stop, pray and do the next indicated thing that doesnt feel right LOL
Things are starting to feel right that felt wrong and i have less troubled life today.
If I believe Im crazy ill act like that. Actually Im very sane,,the entire credit goes to NA and God. There are times when drink/drug thoughts do come up,,, but they are gone in a second,, leaving me to face my recovery ! Like the other day I was very angry with someone to whom I should be very greatful,,, but there i was scolding that person loudly and in fron of others. Later tho i tried to justify it,, i was feeling ashamed and for a fleeting second I thought a drink of whatever will solve the problem.... But thats when I woke up to my own reality that Im an addict and o matter what succes I have in terms of money,property and prestige im an addict for the rest of my life. thats why I need to acknowledge using thoughts and then let em go by sharing with others,,,
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
