i HAVE RELAPSED AFTER 3 1/2 YEARS AND NOW HAVE 63 DAYS CLEAN..STILL STRUGGLING WITH THE DESIRE TO USE AND HAVING A HARD TIME MOTIVATING INTO MY RECOVERY..I BADLY WANT TO STAY CLEAN AND THIS TIME AROUND I LOST MY JOB OF 21 YRS..POSSIBLY MY NURSING LICENSE AND REELING TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO GET MY LIFE BACK ON TRACK..I HAVE A 20 YR OLD DAUGHTER IN COLLEGE I HAVE TO PROVIDE FOR AND A 19 MONTH OLD DAUGHTER AT HOME I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF SO I REALLY WANT TO GET IT RIGHT THIS TIME..ANY SUGGESTIONS ON PREVENTING RELAPSE...GLAD TO BE HERE THANKS TINA
Welcome to Miracles in Progress. I don't have magic answer for you, but can only share what has been working for me: meetings, sponsorship, honesty, open-mindedness, and willingness.
I'm glad to have you here and look forward to reading your posts.
Hello Tina, Blithe is totally correct. The main thing with going to meetings I find is that everyone there has been through what you are going through right now and will understand you and what you are going through.
Welcome to MIP, this place will also help with your recovery. The main thing to do right now is don't pick up no matter how you are feeling.
kenh
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God is the only one you can depend on in recovery.
I ended up here shortly after relapsing with 5-1/2 years Tina I didn't lose much of anything but that time but I did gain more knowledge of myself and my addiction.
I chose to take the relapse as a necessary thing towards a better recovery and like you chose to rise above it an not allow my addiction to bring me down further so CONGRATULATIONS on the 63 days.
I would only suggest a thorough inventory of where you were before relapsing and where you want to be now compared to how it was obviously something went wrong with that recovery process that brought you back to using again, only you can know what that is.
I would say keep your head up your boots strapped tight and resolve to make this recovery one that sticks without any reservation this time around, I just came up on 20 months so you can do it too.
Tina, I just came up on 5 months after a relapse. I have got a plan that sticks now and I will use it, meetings, sharing, steps and a Higher Power. I also choose to use the relapse as a learning point, I have taken some inventory and learned that when I get judgemental and start to dislike things for no reason, that is when I have to change my attitude, speak to my Higher Power and renew my passion for NA.
kenh
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God is the only one you can depend on in recovery.
