(((((((((Blithe and family)))))))))) I am so saddened to hear this news....I will keep you all in my prayers....there just are no words other than those....I will pray.....Hugs and Love
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Just For Today....I will have faith in someone in NA who believes in me and wants to help me in my recovery.
Oh my God, Gloria. I am deeply moved and saddened by this young man's situation. Please know that I will be praying for you, and all others who know him, and the family. May your Higher Power hold you very close at this time, dear. And may this sweet young person have peace and be without pain.
It's very hard, sometimes unbearable, to just see a loved one dying, feeling so very powerless and helpless, frustrated that the doctors and the treatments and the medical science cannot do a thing about it... so very hard to accept that there is a Higher Power's will that is greater than what I think is good for me and my loved one, very difficult to open my mind to this Higher Power and to trust that Power, to surrender and accept...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Thank you all so very much for your kind words, thoughts, and prayers. I am incredibly grateful and fortunate to have you all in my life. As you can imagine, my family is devastated.
oh hun, i am so sorry, i also hold you in my thoughts, in love and light, praying for you and yours. I know how you feel, even though its not a member of my family a resident where i work is dying from cancer, currently going through radiation and soon chemo, it is inoperable.
These residents have become like family to me, i have worked there since last march or so.
(((((Prayers and Condolences to Blithe & Family)))))
I'm also trying to prepare myself for a similar eventuality, and just to see you fellow members having gone through the pain and grief without having to use Just For Today gives me a lot of strength and hope.
Lately, I feel my father whose cancer is getting a bit chronic and unresponsive to treatments is not picking my calls and passing on his mobile to my mom so that she can talk to me instead. Sometimes I feel I just need to say so many things to him, listen to his voice over the phone... Lately, I wake up with a desperate wish to see him live normally like before, fit and up and actively participating in his daily life... Just the fact that his condition is irreversible and progressive sends a weird kind of feeling in my body, a chill, numb sensation...
I'm going to call him again tomorrow morning and talk with him about memories of my childhood, those moments with him that I recollect these days so clearly, like never before... I'm gonna tell him how much I cherish those moments, and how much I appreciate his reassuring presence and relentless support that he provided me tirelessly during my years of struggle to stop using... If not for him and the hope he gave me whenever I cried to him to just give up on me, abandon me and move on, I wouldn't have been here sharing this priceless life with all of you... He has stood by me always, a huge tower of strength on which I could draw hope from...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
yes,, i remember my Pa very fondly who died about 7 years ago due to kidney and heart failure,, the docs said hed ne allright,, so when they calld i didnt hurry. But by the time i went,,, there he was lying on a bed,,mouth open. The female doc looks at me and says 'SORRY BUT HES BEEN DEAD 10 MINUTES" My heart was wrenched,, "these b!@#$%^&" i thought. theyd said hed be allright and now,,, Many times later I tried to go back in time,, wishing i could have been there and held his hand at least in the last moments !! I felt very guilty for not having been there !! In the next two years ive seen Pa tat my bedstead,Ive talked to him about things,,ive had him smile down at me,,seen him min my dreams,, God Bless Pa !! it took a lot of work to accept emotionally,, it was easy to say"gods will I wasnt there" but at a feelings level it was a long drawn thing !! my Pa was great, he left us well off, he allowed me to do a 9th on him,,and at the end he didnt trouble me in going away !! His blessings are with me each and every day of my life,, i can feel it in my bones !!
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
