Lately, from the last couple of weeks, life has been very upbeat and pleasant for me. Everything was smooth, and there was a lot of peace and joy. Work inspired passion in me. Me and my wife, we were both very supportive, appreciative and caring of each other. My health improved and so did my father's And suddenly, out of the blue, saturday evening, I ended up feeling irritated and showing it up to my wife. We had an arguement and sunday morning when I woke up, all that was so blissful seemed to have vanished
I was wondering what went wrong and why. In the afternoon, it hit me. My last NA meeting was on Tuesday. I had not made a meeting for 4 continuous days! Very rare for me to do that, but nevertheless, this is what happens out of the blue when I do that, skip meetings thinking that I don't need them now since everything is so very wonderfully well in my recovery. I went for the Sunday evening meeting. Shared about this as soon as the chairperson opened the floor. Got to listen some awesome shares with members who could identify. Met some members after the meeting, stayed back with them for a couple of hours over dinner...
What happened then was an awesome spiritual experience. All we did in these two hours was just discuss and explore how we can better support the weaker groups in the other part of the town, how to attract members to take them up as homegroups, and since we were all part of the H&I Subcommittee, we brainstormed about how to coordinate consistent H&I service with commitment. Everyone contributed their experience, strength and hope. New ideas evolved. Great insights into H&I guidelines were studied and discussed. The energy was vibrant and infectious. And one amazing aspect of this conversation was that there was no "I". It was "WE" all the way... no one seemed to care much who did what and who does not do what... there was no I and You or Us and Them etc. What an effect it had on me, this selfless passionate approach to NA service as it expressed from within each of us.
After I left from there, the first thing I found myself doing was to clearly see my part and only my part and how I had wronged my wife during the saturday conversation that blew into an argument and caused such an uneasy atmosphere on sunday morning between us. I called her. I admitted my part, and made amends. We had a lovely night together
Once again, I've come to experience what working the program does and what happens when I don't IT WORKS!!!
Thank you for sharing with me, love you all...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Wow, thanks!! This is what I need. Meetings are my #1 neccesity right now, and more of them. But gosh, I get so complacent and I isolate so badly at times. Then I act a fool. Go figure.
But I am headed out with recovery friend today for lunch, and then a meeting tonight. Instead of going because I NEED to tonight, I am going to try to go with a grateful heart, and see what happens!!! Thanks for your help today.
that was a great share, maybe my car breaks down so much because i don't go to meetings as often as i should
LOL... that's a good one, Scott!!!
But I guess my car will break down no matter how many meetings I make, if it has to. But the way I react to my car breaking down often depends on how well I'm working the basics of the program
And yes, I second what Joni suggested, I'm for Honda too
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
And suddenly, out of the blue, saturday evening, I ended up feeling irritated and showing it up to my wife. We had an arguement and sunday morning when I woke up, all that was so blissful seemed to have vanished 
