"We know that if we pray for God's will we will receive what is best for us, regardless of what we think." Basic Text, page 44
By the time we came to NA, our inner voices had become unreliable and self-destructive. Addiction had warped our desires, our interests, our sense of what was best for ourselves. That's why it's been so important in recovery to develop our belief in a Power greater than ourselves, something that could provide saner, more reliable guidance than our own. We've begun learning how to rely on this Power's care and to trust the inner direction it provides us.
As with all learning processes, it takes practice to "pray only for knowledge of God's will for us and the power to carry that out." The selfish, ego-driven attitudes we developed in our addiction are not cast off overnight. Those attitudes may affect the way we pray. We may even find ourselves praying something like, "Relieve me of this character defect so I can look good."
The more straightforward we are about our own ideas and desires, the easier it will be to distinguish between our own will and our Higher Power's will. "Just for your information, God;" we might pray, "here's what I want in this situation. Nonetheless, I ask that your will, not mine, be done." Once we do this, we are prepared to recognize and accept our Higher Power's guidance.
Just for today: Higher Power, I've learned to trust your guidance, yet I still have my own ideas about how I want to live my life. Let me share those ideas with you, and then let me clearly understand your will for me. In the end, let your will, not mine, be done. pg. 354
ŠJust For Today Daily Meditation is the property of Narcotics Anonymous
I think I have always "wanted" the right things deep down.... peace, serenity, calm...
But history has shown that I sure do find destructive ways to try to achieve those when left to my own devices. Ultimately, I achieve the opposite in my failed pursuits. Stress, panic, remorse, and a yearning for oblivion that cannot be satiated. My original desires get twisted beyond all recognition.
I am much better off Trusting that my HP can do a far better job at granting me what I need in due time, if I just keep asking for His Will, not mine.
Thanks for posting this today. It helped me a lot.
Great Post. I have been forgetting to surrender and my self will has been running riot. As a result I've been feeling far from serene. And totally out of balance with the universe if you understand what I'm saying. I think it's probably time for some introspection, meditation and a look at my "recovery". While I haven't picked up or used, I'm dry at the moment and not working my recovery and it's not a good place to be. I'm feeling very alone right now.
I talk with my higher power just like he was right next to me and I alreeady know he knows my every thought . I let him guide me more these days though I do take the wheel to often and drive myself into a wall its nothing like it used to be , i'm not totally out of control.
God does for me what I can't do myself and I always come out the better for it , all I have to do is the footwork.
Chedza meditate and listen then act on what the message is you get, dont ever ignore that voice I did and I relapsed
