i finally have both my girls living with me, really emotional these days. i came home from work the other day and thought holy... coming home to a houseful of people is wierd... i told my girls that then said... but its ok you my people... :) Plus... i got a new puppy just days before my girls moved in...AND a new man in my life for the last month and a half or so...so lots going on
I was having our step guide study group in my home every thursday and had to tell everyone that we gotta find a new home for our meeting so as of yet no home for that, but i have faith that will work out.
Every once in a while i get all nervous and shaky thinking bout having my family back together, i've screwed it up before...lost the man and the cat too.. Is it a test?? I hear my HP won't give me any test that i can't pass so i'm riding on that and really trying my best to stay in the here and now, this moment is good, way to good to give up today, i am soooo grateful
added a pic of the pup.. which by the way...i can not...and its driving me nuts...find a name for...any input??
have a great day, don't do drugs hugs...not drugs... b:) Wendy
God only gives us as much as we can handle ( he's got a sick sense of humor too) :)
I think we need to kiss that gift horse in the mouth YUK but still I have searched deep down to see if these things are what i want and they are, these people who come into our lives can be blessings and gifts and we deserve them Wendy .
Looking back I have lost so much and I make sure I thank God for what I have/had and what I don't have/had.
GIFTS everything is a gift we turned our will and lives over to something that really cares and loves us , we need be thankful ....
Just a wild shot at it Wendy,,, how does the name 'SNOOKER' sound ? that name means "rookie',,"newcomer" etc !! I have a new lady in my life and am really feeling good and am eager to know where this ones leading to !!!
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Thanks for sharing where you are today....it really helps me to see others making it when they think they can't....we walk through the fear to the other side and leave all the negatives in our past right there, in the past :) Love ya Wendy!!
I think your precious doggie looks like a HONEY......
Give your girls a big old hug from us all :)
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Just For Today....I will have faith in someone in NA who believes in me and wants to help me in my recovery.
that is awesome, it's nice to come home to family.. i missed that for a lot of my childhood, mostly just 1 parent, or just my grandma for a couple years.. or just a roomate.. it makes me happy to see you are doing good, you shouldn't doubt yourself, you're doing great, and dont worry about the future.. like they say just a day at a time.. hah, take care
my boyfriend really wants a name that reminds him of recovery... its so hard!! he mentioned hope...but it doesn't jive with me or puppy... we've called her baby since we brought her home..been a week now... i like the name honey...when my sister was pregnant with my niece i said to call her honey...she thought i was off my rocker... years later when i went home to visit my niece had her own cat and had called her honey..wierd...she never knew of my wanting her named honey... :)
boyfriend and Puppy went for her first shots yesterday.. apparently she was a real bitch about it!! vet said we have to take care of that attitude pronto...when my youngest moved back in it took 3 days for them to warm up to eachother.. she growls and barks...if you can imagine a teeny tiny bark..she is pomeranian. Just about 11 weeks old now, born sept 7...day before my birthday
so lots of my time is spent dodging little poop piles...omg... i have never had a puppy of my own...lots of cats in my day..not pups, a whole new experience for this girl!
So the whole family got to go see a hypnotist show last night...what a riot!! living, loving and laughing pretty much sums up recovery for me today... somedays it just feels surreal..well if i'm dreaming don't pinch me...i don't want to wake up!!!
"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
