God what day,,, Celebration with family and friends of the Festival Of Lights here in Indi Bangalore,,, I was so happy,, my house scenes are resolved and I haev A NICE NEW HOME TILL MY APARTMENT GETS FINISHED ABOUT 18 MONTHS FROM NOW,, my ma, daughter and I are feeling closer and also had a girlfriend I met on the net and was really vibing well and she wanted to visit me this Christmas and I wanted to goto her place in England after the New Year. Then this morning she sends me an sms saying she has changed her mind about us,, she thinks she has to let go all she has and shift to India with me,, ive sent her many smses saying thats not what I wanted her to do !! Im really hoping now that it wasnt a flash in the pan and that Ill not lose my beloved Jaci. forever because she got me wrong !! Im saying to myself to take it a day at a time and believe in True Love as a Power Greater than us !! Heartbreak,,
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
If I may suggest, maybe a visit by any of you to the other's place, and spending a little time with each other to see how it feels would be a good idea, and then you both can take it from there as per how you both feel about each other and being together
We did that, me and my wife she being from the west and me from the east. We agreed that we both will meet each other and spend a few days together, and at the end of it if we don't feel like going ahead, any of us would be free to move on. We spent a couple of months together and then were better able to take further decisions.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
trust an addict like me to write out my whole life story at the very onset !!! well Tahir,, I am feeling sad she cancelled her visit here for xmas !! I suppose she got overwhelmed with the idea she must leave her mom,friends,cat and dog and shift to India for me,,I dont know what made her think that way,, i did mention possiblity of marriage,, just to show that "my intentions were honourable" however this wonderful Program,, having taught me to live in the open question and avoid greed and expectations,,I was in that state of openmindedness,, I ws planning to stop all my shows for a month and goto England and be with her and pusruse our wonderful love affair !! Im hoping tht will come true,,my lady love sends me a great sms last nite that did lift the sadness a bit !! I wish there was someway we could get non Na people to understand the concept of JUST FOR TODAY !! SIGH !!!!
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
