Congratulations Ken on your 6 month NA Birthday!!!
Blue - 1/2 a cake! It's blue so we don't have to be. When we are blue, we can be like BB King, so you don't have to sing the blues to see blue skies. The color of our Basic Text. Hopefully, we've seen one, opened one, better yet, read one by now. 6 months no blunts.
How do we get it? We read the Basic Text!
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Just For Today....I will have faith in someone in NA who believes in me and wants to help me in my recovery.
Sorry Ken, I must have missed reading that!!! Darn it, I sure didn't mean to make you feel bad!! I love you and just glad you are back with us ((((Ken)))) I love you and didn't mean any harm my friend (((((hugs)))))) and NA Love
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Just For Today....I will have faith in someone in NA who believes in me and wants to help me in my recovery.
Gives me lots of strength and hope to have a miracle called Ken H in my life
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
And that is what you do pick yourself back up it will make you stronger.
Look at the positive side of the whole situation and GET SOMETHING FROM IT I want to hear what you learned about yourself and your addiction that is what really matters.
For me it was a matter of HONESTY with myself we decieve ourselves often and breaking down those barriers and seein the truth is what matters most , so at least we stop the deciet and recover.
Glad for you Ken keep at it check in more often stay in touch tell us whats going on in that head LOL
Thanks Big V, I barely know what's going on in my head. My Relapse = I had dinner with a client. He wanted to go for some drinks after dinner. I stayed on diet coke and then decided I could have a glass of wine or 2 and then go back to my hotel. Had quite a few glasses of wine. Upon leaving the bar, I still had intentions of getting back to my hotel room. I got in a taxi, started talking with the driver, asked him where the rough part of Sydney was and took a ride down there. Got myself hooked up with some H & C. I don't really remember the next 2 days in a scrungy hotel room with all the junk I could find, of course I was the only person with money, so I was the man. Finally came down and this time was the worst I have ever felt. I put so much effort into getting back to normal (clean) and lost it by using my own will and not listening to my concience or my higher powers direction. I really felt like I hit the bottom again, came very close to getting arrested, I only pray to God that the needles I used were all clean. I am clean for today. Hope I can do it again tomorrow.
kenh
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God is the only one you can depend on in recovery.
Hugs bro Keep rockin clean & serene, we need you...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
