i am taking a trip this weekend to see my mom and sis, back to my home town where i grew up. i haven't seen my family for 2 years and the last time i was there i ended up in a crack house for the whole visit..yuk yuk yuk!! I feel mostly ok about going, i am very anxious to see my family. There is a certain amount of fear though going on in me. Faith means walking through the fear. I feel that i have grown lots since that last visit. I asked my family if they would please not drink and drug during my visit and hope they honour that. The last time i went they were drunk when i got there at 8 am...celebrating my visit... ya know how it works. I went on the internet yesterday and printed out some meeting lists. I gotta say though that i didn't seem to find a whole lot of NA, tons of AA though. I was surprised because where i am going is a HUGE city. My boyfriend is going with me, thankfully he is in the program so i will at least have his support, and i am also taking my youngest daughter.
Timingly, our step study group finished step 1 this week. I know for sure that i don't have to use today, for me i can't say never use again, but i am confident in today. So its a 7 hour drive to get there, we should arrive around 8 pm or so tonight and coming home on sunday. If you would please add me to your prayers!! love yas and have a heartsmile weekend :) Wendy
Have a great time with your loved ones, Wendy, have you in my thoughts and prayers, lots of hugs and love, shall miss you though
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Well, i've started praying every night, (which is not something i do!), but i found that it helps me so much, so you'll be in my prayers in this new habit i've picked up
trip was great...too short...but still great the only way i got stoned was stone shopping.. :) there was a moment yesterday..fleeting but there all the same.. when i thought of having a drink... for me a drink is a gateway to the drug. I got through it though safely gotta get ready for work, didn't get home til 1 in the am last night so a bit tired. will post more later many hugs Wendy
