In this farewell there's no blood there's no alibi
coz I've drawn regret from the truth of thousand lies
So let mercy come and wash away
What I've done I face myself to cross-out what I've become erase myself and let go of what I've done
Put to rest what you've thought of me
Well I clean this slate with the hands of uncertainty
So let mercy come and wash away
What I've done I face myself to cross-out what I've become erase myself and let go of what I've done
For what I've done I start again and whatever pain may come today this ends Im forgiving what I've done I face myself to cross-out what I've become erase myself and let go of what I've done
crawling in my skin these wounds they will not heal fear is how I fall confusing what is real
there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface consuming/confusing this lack of self-control I fear is never ending controlling/I can't seem
to find myself again my walls are closing in (without a sense of confidence I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take) I've felt this way before so insecure
crawling in my skin these wounds they will not heal fear is how I fall confusing what is real
discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me distracting/reacting against my will I stand beside my own reflection it`s haunting how i cant seem...
to find myself again my walls are closing in (without a sense of confidence I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take) I've felt this way before so insecure
crawling in my skin these wounds they will not heal fear is how I fall confusing what is real
crawling in my skin these wounds they will not heal fear is how I fall confusing confusing what is real
there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface consuming,confusing what is real this lack of self-control I fear is never ending controlling,confusing what is real
I cannot take this anymore I'm saying everything I've said before All these words they make no sense I find bliss in ignorance Less I hear the less you'll say But you'll find that out anyway
Just like before...
Everything you say to me Takes me one step closer to the edge And I'm about to break I need a little room to breathe Cause I'm one step closer to the edge And I'm about to break
I find the answers aren't so clear Wish I could find a way to disappear All these thoughts they make no sense I find bliss in ignorance Nothing seems to go away Over and over again
Chorus
Shut up when I'm talking to you Shut up, shut up, shut up Shut up, shut up, shut up
I had nothing to say and i get lost in the nothingness inside of me (i was confused) and i live it all out to find, but im not the only person wit these things in mind (inside of me) but all that they can see the words revealed is the only real thing that i got left to feel (nothing to lose) just stuck hollow and alone and the fault is my own and the fault is my own
i wanna heal i wanna feel what i thought was never real i wanna let go of the pain ive felt so long. erase all the pain til its gone i wanna heal i wanna feel like im close to something real. i wanna find something ive wanted all along somewhere i belong
and i got nothing to say. i cant believe i didnt fall right down on my face (i was confused) look at everywhere only to find. it is not the way i had imagined it all in my mind. (so what am i) what do i have but negativity cuz i cant trust no one by the way everyone is looking at me (nothing to lose) nothing to gain im hollow and alone and the fault is my own and the fault is my own
I will never know myself until i do this on my own cuz i will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed i will never be anything til i break away from me i will break away. ill find myself today
wanna heal i wanna feel what i thought was never real i wanna let go of the pain ive felt so long. erase all the pain til its gone i wanna heal i wanna feel like im close to something real. i wanna find something ive wanted all along somewhere i belong
Theres a shadow just behind me. shrouding every step I take. Making every promise empty. pointing every finger at me. Waiting like a stalking butler, who upon the finger rests. Murder now the path of must we, just because the son has come.
Jesus, wont you f'n whistle. something but the past and done.
Why cant we not be sober? I just want to start this over. Why cant we drink forever? I just want to start this over.
I am just a worthless liar. I am just an imbecile. I will only complicate you. trust in me and fall as well. I will find a center in you. I will chew it up and leave. I will work to elevate you, just enough to bring you down.
Mother mary, wont you whisper. something but the past is done.
Why cant we not be sober? I just want to start this over. Why cant we sleep forever? I just want to start this over.
I am just a worthless liar. I am just an imbecile. I will only complicate you. trust in me and fall as well. I will find a center in you. I will chew it up and leave. Trust me. trust me. trust me. trust me. trust me.
Why cant we not be sober. I just want to start things over. Why cant we sleep forever. I just want to start this over.
I want what I want... I want what I want... I want what I want... I want what I want...
THATS HOW A STRUGGLING ADDICT FEELS once we start healing all that changes