[passing on something I received at my inbox this morning]
Sometimes we think we're supposed to have more recovery under our belts. Perhaps we feel the need to impress our peers with our success in staying off drugs. But perhaps we are really just trying to convince ourselves. We know how difficult recovery is, and surely our Higher Power is not fooled by our pretense of well being.
If we try to hide our problems, we cannot get help for them. To get help we must tell people where we're really at. No one can read a closed book.
Am I open with others?
Higher Power, help me believe in the saying, "Ask and you shall receive."
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Yeah, i am not open at all with anyone, especially not my parents, but not even my friends. I've started to speak more and more though at meetings and it IS helping a lot, just need to get a sponser, but i just would feel overwhelmed by that, like i had 1 more obligation on top of everything else that i hate doing
And a closed mouth don't get fed, without sharing whats happening with us we don't get the spiritual food we need to heal......think about it.
One step at a time Scott I'm the same way but theres guys that just want to help you out , it helps THEM to help you thats how this works and you need to get well really soon brother theres a whole bunch of young folks that NEED YOU to help and sponsor them so think about that, it will get you out of self and thats one tool that will help keep YOU clean...