So i went to this awesome meeting in cambridge tonight, and afterwords hung out with this really cool kid my age that has multiple years clean, he moves to san diego on tuesday though, that pisses me off, but i'm being more open and talking to people at meetings, and i almost asked someone to be my sponser tonight, which is a BIG step for me, i think i might ask them next week. there was someone at the meeting that talked about surender, and it was a really great share, and they said the whole thing about how "you never have to use again" and i'd heard it before and was just like.. whatever. but for some reason tonight i really heard it, i mean i really really don't ever have to use again, when things are tough i DON'T have to use, and things will get better, i dunno why i never really took it in before.. hmm.. well.. god, grant me the serenity to... wait, this isn't a meeting... done.